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| mle (profile) wrote, on 10-30-2002 at 10:19am | |
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fight with the parents last night. well, dad. over stupid things. i keep beating myself up over the fact that if i hadnt come home sick, none of this wouldve happened. i cant drive anywhere. i cant go anywhere. i cant go to practice. i cant be online (on aim at least). theyre probably gonna take the cell from me. i have to quit pom. they wont let me work during christmas break. i couldnt eat dinner last night. i dont know. i feel bad. i was gonna go apologize last night, but i was too busy talkin to matt (secretly) online. then he was in bed by the time i came upstairs. then i was gonna talk to them this morning. but they started w/o me. i could hear them yelling even over the shower. (last night, while i was protesting his not calling my coach asap to tell her i was off the team) mle: why do you stay, dad? gerald: cause i love it when you hate me mle: maybe i dont hate you but maybe i do. i dont know. im just so entirely sick of this. i knew if things didnt get better or at least stop getting worse, i wouldve run away last night. i was holding off calling kathy until i decided. but they left me alone for an hour or so and i cooled off. but talking to matt makes me feel guilty again. i got him grounded from the internet after 11pm lol. we're such nerds. but he was so pissed at me yesterday. he even took me outta his profile :( idk.. its like, i feel like a total bitch about the whole situation. i take advantage of him and lead him on, and elliot told him what was really going on. idkw2s or think anymore... ive just got a lot of thinking to do mle |
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spud | 10-30-02 8:56pm hey.
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| mle | Re:, 10-30-02 10:34pm hey. shit is basically worked out. i just gotta suck up and bite my tongue for the next year and half. but thanks for the offer.. :) (lol idk how id get up there anyways, but hey, its the thought that counts)
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