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| behindmysmile (profile) wrote, on 12-1-2003 at 4:24pm | |
| Current mood: *aLL aLoNe* Subject: I wonder wat it feels like to be normal..? =/ |
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| Dead inside Life has drowned me in a puddle of blood As I took the knife slowly to my wrist I stopped and thought Should I really do this? Will life get better? Should I wait? I decided that I’ve waited long enough Nothing has gotten better Everything is a blur The good memories are all just a simple vivid image My mind is filled with horrid thoughts that are indescribable Life has drowned me in a puddle of blood As the knife slits me partly I stop and think again Am I making the right choice? Should I stop? Or keep going? I think only negative About all the bad times And how the cruel world has treated me I feel that it wants me dead Should I think positive? Once again my mind tells me to continue As I see the drops of blood drip from my wrist I feel the pain and sorrow I want to stop but my hand keeps moving the knife The pain I feel on my wrist Is not nearly as bad as the pain I feel inside I take a deep breath And realize that I’m making a mistake I think long and hard I feel the need to keep cutting I come to a halt Asking why, why me? I have dealed with pain and pressure long enough I am already dead inside So, I continue with the knife I am almost done I can feel my body become very weak I start shaking My heart stops beating I fall to the floor I’ve drowned myself in a puddle of blood Wow Megan sent me this like this morning i think..mhmm i kinda was like really offended by this..tho she has no idea..i really felt horrible..cuz ya know wat..dats EXACTLY how i feel.. =/ Ive been doing *dat* like fo a week now..off and on of korse..but oh wow do i ever wish dat i did it every single second of da day..and i could..but i dont..too much time spent at skool..ick!! =/ oh well..im done..bye.. |
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thoughtskill | 12-01-03 7:09pm im so mad at you.
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