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moana (profile) wrote,
on 12-3-2003 at 10:45am
Current mood: creative
Music: mindless self indulgence - jimmy page
Subject: the woman moaning sounds lik a toto!
i dont know why i'm so cheery. i have plenty to be "upset" about. but "just cuz you feel it doesn't mean it's there." i dont wanna be upset anymore, it's a drag. i have a good time, and thats worth just about anything. so what i'm fuckin up school? at least i try at what matters to me. so what if i'm losing weight? at least i'm looking better. so what if i've been sex-deprived for ages? it's given me time to appreciate the finer things in life. life's good to all of us, and we just need to realize it. it took me long enough, but better late than never. i'm glad i realized it before i died. i jsut drew a picture of a muse, wings, sash, naked, hair, the works. but she looked sad so i threw it away. i dont want this sad shyt anymore. time for a change. i was reading my narrative and God i'm leading one depressed, fucked up life. no more. i want to be happy and that's all i need to BE happy. i have a family (sort of), some level or other of intelligence, creativity, artistry, certain talents and attributes, i have a home, a closet stuffed with all i need (and lots i dont), a hot cat, i got good cash, privacy, respect, i have friends who, even if they don't care for me, i care a great deal about. i'm so sick of people dying. suicide, OD, heart attacks, whatever... i'm just so sick of it all and i don't want it anymore. i won't try to commit suicide, never again. i know for a fact i won't OD, not unless someone stuffs the crap into me by force, and well, let's hope i don't have a heartattack. staying alive is the hardest thing to do. it takes a lot out of ya and you always end up making other people happier than you make yourself. go figure.
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metalhead

I love ToTo!, 12-04-03 5:21am

YOUR CAT IS SO HOT!
Dude, I cried after that dream last night , when you said that you never really liked me at all! It was so sad. You said "All of our conversations were just consonants with vowels in the middle. You never seemed real to me and I have to stop pretending you're my friend." And you kissed me and left. But when you left you took Stiglio and Caffeine and even Nadia from last year with you. So I spent the rest of my dream alone in the middle of a dark street.

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moana

Re: I love ToTo!, 12-04-03 11:45am

I love you more andy! i don't care about some stupid dream you had because it's not true and you should know me better! i don't pretend to be nice to people! i just read your message and it made me feel so sad. i would have messaged you sooner but i was at my daddy's and now i wanna talk to you and tell you i love you andy! don't leaaaave meeeeee *shloop*

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metalhead

I love ToTo!, 12-04-03 2:58pm

*carries ToTo around*

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