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| goobs827 (profile) wrote, on 12-3-2003 at 4:09pm | |
| Current mood: crappy Music: have yourself a merry little christmas |
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| I just wrote a really really long private post...i got out a lot...the only thing from it that i really can share with the public is that I MISS MIAMI SO MUCH i miss every aspect of it...i am so happy there..i love the atmosphere and that *feeling* i have when im there..and 17 days is just way too long. im gonna go postal soon and why cant i be more like elise??? she shrugs things off so easily i wish i could be more like that..i used to be more like that..what am i saying..i have no idea who i am...i dont know what i like i dont know anything about myself..im having an identity chrisis ..again im gonna go postal soon and it doesnt feel like christmas season but it should...that makes me so mad...maybe this friday when my next tradition occurs it will be better. and i feel like i have no one to share these things with but my woohu--u know how everyone says u tell ure pals anything and everything? well i love and adore my friends but i dont feel like i can tell them or that theyd truly LISTEN to me or understand me, i cant even tell my mom some of these things and she understands me best out of everyone...im so used to listening to everyone else i think my friends forget, i get sad too. but i really dont blame them--im a very private person..i dont wear my heart on my sleeve..i keep things in. And im so MAD at myself for being in a bad mood i really am so mad. its christmas...what the fuck am i doing being sad? and i really have no reason to me upset..i just--am. i need to stop thinking. i need some mindless games or television to get me to stop thinking... haha maybe i can just watch Paris Hilton tonight on the Simple Life....that'd def. be enough haha ok i feel a little better wow this turhed out to be longer than my private post! *CiAo* |
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wannabeangel | 12-03-03 6:46pm gabi-
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goobs827 | Re:, 12-03-03 7:38pm lol im glad someone understands..its hard to find someone who can relate, especially when i feel like i dont even make sense myself. id luv to talk about things whenever u want.
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