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liz (profile) wrote,
on 12-4-2003 at 3:28pm
so heres the thing
i decided today that we arent even friends anymore
and i am feeling pretty good and pretty over and done with the whole thing.
I mean we are still friends in the sense that were in the same group and such.
and i do care about you.
but we arent friends like we were.
and i always thought that losing that friendship we had would be devastating but you have other people who you obviously care about a lot more than me.
so in the end.
I dont want to be one of those convenience friends.
thats what i feel like i am.
all the rest of the time.
well ill always be second to connie wont I
so yeah thats all

ok love and hugs everyone
lizzy
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box

12-04-03 5:27pm

Well if your talking about me.. then id like to say.. shut the hell up.. you dont even begin to understand the strain and pressure that has been on me latly.. you are not second to connie and connie isnt second to you.. cause im not going to go out with either of you.. im sorry.. its harsh.. but i only want to be friends with the both of you.. nothing more.. i cant take this shit anymore
all i see in your journal is how depressed you are over me.. and its rediculus.. i know you like me and you care for me.. i like you to.. and i care for you.. but only to an extent. as a friend.. in that note.. you told me how you felt and that you would just rather be friends.. thats is what i want..

Im sorry that i cant be the person you want me to be.. and i have been distant latley.. but i have been distant from everyone.. not just you.. your not one of my "conveinence friends" i dont know of such a thing.. im not a bastard like that.. but belive what you want.. Im just sick of people crying over me.. im just now getting my life back to where i want it.. and it has been nothing but kicks in the balls and headache's all the way..

Im sorry you feel the way you do... but try and take in perspective what im dealing with right now, i have my own problems too.. being me isnt easy right now..

im sorry.. this is harsh.. but i had to say it.. your a great friend of mine. and i wouldn't like to lose that.. but somthing had to be said..

~box

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liz

Re:, 12-05-03 3:50pm

ha ive read this a couple of times.
i have to say.
well we talked and i told how bad you misinterpreted everything i said.
so awesome
and as far as me being your friend
its gonna take more than a little rant on my journal to get rid of me.


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liz

Re:, 12-05-03 9:08pm

oh yeah and also
about it all
its the distance that kills me.
im not crying over you.
i just want everything the way it used to be.
and i want you to be able to talk to me.
cuz i consider you one of my best friends.
i dont know what id do without you.
I just want to know that I mean as much to you.
plutonically.
yeah.
*hugs*
Lizzy

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