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SeraphimRhapsody (profile) wrote,
on 12-5-2003 at 11:06pm
Current mood: lost
Music: Here I Am (?) ~Something Corporate
Subject: detachment of love?
Finally the week of feeling ungood is over. However you'll notice the time. That's right. In my mind I've been in bed for -55 minutes. Mmmm That real annoyed mood is back. Pissed off. This stuff'll be all out of order:

White Oleander is an awesome movie. One day after school I found it and my sister came up stairs and we just watched a bit... then got fixed. It was captivating and we watched it entirely without doing anything else. When it was over... it was like 2 and a half hours later. Man, everyone should see that movie.

FINALLY GOT THE NAME!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!
The movie is Titan A. E. Found it today like I knew I would eventually. It's animated and amazingly cool. I wanted to buy that DVD. Hmmm.

Power totally ignored me in class today. I was annoyed and just about to throw paper balls at him... However when he found out he was ignoring me he was very apologetic and sincere about helping me. It was funny to say the least.

Chemistry was not a fave of mine today. No Swanson like I predicted. Sub was.. yeah he was stupid. About being a sub. Other than that he was... interesting. Did I write about last class? I didn't?! Well then!

Of course I missed it, but it being my class, being filled in, and seeing the aftermath counts just as much. So I left for the bathroom since I didn't feel well and it seems the sub found the shower. You know.. the science shower. So... he walked over to it... and pulled the handle. Yep. You read right. He pulled it. So the water trickled then ran like faucet. He couldn't stop it. Called in a janitor and they couldn't stop it until the pushed up really hard. But when they did... something like clanked and the water gushed like it was broken. Course this is splashing the floor and puddling instead of going down the drain. The janitor finally got it off. But it was still trickling when I came back.

Other things about chem today upset me I guess. That or it's manipulation and confusion. Quite possible with this strange headache type thing I've got going on


You know what's fun? Selling chocolate with the jerks on this campus. You know what's even more fun? Finding a counterfeit bill in your envelope of cash. Yeah, that's what I said. Someone is so dead. You SO do not play me like that. I know it was some black girl who gave it to me when I was in a rush of course between classes with books and whatnot.
So I was standing in line at lunch before going to Power and I listen in on convo's and one proved muy interesante. This black kid had the same counterfeit bills I had been given and was showing them off to his friends saying "I'm using them for chocolates." I memorized that jerk's face.
Right so I take Katie to get her box of chocolate and tell Power I've got a problem. Tell him about the bill. Follow him in and and talk to the head of police on campus. Yeah.
You know what? I can't wait for the next counterfeit bill I'm given. Ripped to shreds... that person had so better hope there's an AP around. Heh, fine I'm not that violent. Nor do I want to be suspended during exams. But they'll be getting it. A warning to all chcocolate sellers.

Note to self: Have Katie count money and make sure Cody didn't short change me when breaking his 20. I counted 20.. or 19.. he said I gave him 16.. The headache thing again? Or I lost it today.


7th Heaven and Degrassi both had segments on self-mutilation and cutters today. They are both very good. The 7th Heaven deals more with the 'why' of the issue and explains it very well. Degrassi showed it's prominence in teens. This is an important issue and it doesn't get the attention it needs. It's nearing anorexia and bulemia for problems with teens yet it's never talked about. I think I'll petition for it to be added to Health class. Hmmm..


I really wanted to go to the Buzz Bake Sale today.. see all the cool bands. Wasn't going to happen but I can dream.

I also want to go to the Battle of the Bands of the local bands. And see Ian, Sharif, and Josh's bands play somewhere. I really really want to see these bands. Hmm.. gotta find good connections.


Oh yeah, and 3 good timings today. I was quite happy with that.

Now I'm at -85 minutes. Night.


"You don't get to know [my] secrets." ~Guess.

With love..
~*~



Question of the Day
What do you know of the topics never talked about? Self-Injury, suicide, depression, all very important issues but things aren't ever addressed. I'd expect at least depression to be hit on stronger due to the knowledge of the IB kids who take it hard.





"At Cavanague Park..
Where you used to take me to play in the sand
And said to me son one day you'll be a man
And man can do terrible things yes they can."
Cavanague Park ~Something Corporate



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If you've noticed I added the missing Questions of the Day, edited some day, and added a few missing days. Have fun.
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DragonSpeaker

12-06-03 12:12am

Counterfeits?! =-O
GRR. Time to be politically incorrect: they only do it to you because you're white. Guaranteed. Good luck catching those bastards, I would so love to hear about a bust.

HAHAHAHA, I never knew it was YOUR class that the sub pulled the shower! That's so funny! Mr. Hock was talking about it today, he think's it freaking hilarious. Oh man, it is. He says we won't be seein' that sub around anymore. Nice. XD

I'm kinda going in random order. Sorry?

Mr. Power was a jerk today. Not just to you. Don't take it personally. Damn math class.

I would so love to go to one of those concerts too. O.O Keep me posted if you're going and want company. ^_^

Self-Injury, suicide, depression.
Let's see, thought about all of those, and if you've read my journal (which I do believe you have) then you know how often. I don't cut or burn, but I know people that do. Some of them claim it makes them feel better about whatever issues they have to deal with, but some of them seem to do it with a mindless persistence they cannot explain. As for suicide, it seems like the only way to escape at times. Depression leads to it. Sometimes it feels like the only way to end the sorrow is to sleep forever. I have comtemplated suicide oh so often, and I suppose it happens most often when I'm buried under a load far too heavy and I'm also being crushed with demands from every side. I don't think there really is a solution, maybe life is like this to weed out some of the weak, but I m of the opinion that there is no medicinal cure for any of these problems, despite the supposed depression treatments and drugs available. I think it is dangerous to tinker with something so frail as a mind- even more so when it is beginning to fray at the edges.

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SeraphimRhapsody

Re:, 12-06-03 10:15pm

Random order is fine.

It does make it better in a twisted but normal-to-them way. But it easily becomes addicting and thus the mindlessness.
There is a solution. Few find it completely but it's there somewhere. I believe the meds do help. They don't solve the problem, but they calm the nerves and return some of the balance. They can be quite dangerous though, you are most right.

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Beagle147

12-06-03 12:29am

Counterfeiting chocolate fundraising money...that's a new one.. Maybe you should just turn in the fake money to power to repay him for ignoring you. o.~ Just kidding. I'm not that mean. Go talk to him though, then talk to a sketch artist for criminals. lol.

Chem sounds like it was a lot more interesting than my chem class. *Yawns*

You know, I never really watched 7th Heaven until a few weeks ago on ABC Family channel, and it's actually a really good show. I always thought it was one of those really horribly bad soap opera-y shows, but I like it.

Buzz Bake Sale is tomorrow.. You could still technically go.

I dont have much to say about the question of the day. Yea.

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SeraphimRhapsody

Re:, 12-06-03 10:18pm

LMAO!! That's genius Lauren!! (Giving Power the bill) I did talk to him. And yes!! Sketch artists for criminals rock my socks! oO;;

You left my class so there! HMPH!

Same here about 7th Heaven. The whole Lindsay thing kept me from trying it out back then.

Technically I could [have] but like that'd happen.

Hmmm. Mkay.

~*~

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Anonymous

12-07-03 11:20am

You have the connections to go, you simply have to ask......you know who to ask as well.

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