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brokenmentality (profile) wrote,
on 12-6-2003 at 2:07am
Music: tbs- Head Club
Tainted Pandemonium

Standing alone in empty confinement I watch my life collapse one shattered piece at at time. Im being swallowed by nothingness that mimics my aparant unspoken desire for loneliness. Every heart i touch i break and every single one tears a part away from the tattered mess i've let myself turn into. Im walking on with chains bound to my broken body, to afraid to look back and see the path i've chosen to struggle down. Im surrounded by stiffled silence with nothing but serene indignity cascading across my tired and broken mentality. I've lost my passion to care and instead all i do is wish my life would for once go how i want it to, but taking it upon myself would bring only more chaos and deppression. Why wont God listen to my cries for help? Why wont he tell me what i'm expected to do when im living my own hell and wandering blindly into circumstances i can never seem to get myself out of. Are you giving me some kind of test, because im failing miserably and im so tired. Everything comes through in muffled whispers. I cant hear you , sometimes i wonder if you're even there. Help me live for you so i can live for myself. Tear me out of this tainted pandemonium. I'll wait for you to come for me, until then i'll just stay here in my empty confinement trying to put my shattered hopes of desperation back into the failure they started as.
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wierdo

12-06-03 11:10am

Erika, I hope everything turns out the way you want them to. You know i'm here for you if you ever need to talk about anything. If you ever need somebody to listen to your thoughts.....

Kevin

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A-Fire-Inside

12-06-03 12:06pm

Erika,
That was a true poem from your heart, and not only do I see it as that, and as a very well written piece of your work, but I also show a tremendous amount of respect to you, and your writing. I think getting into the spirit of God is a step toward a better life, not only for you, but for many. Well done Erika.

-Jake

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brokenmentality

Re:, 12-11-03 6:47pm

thanks, that means a lot to me. Sorry if i dont reply back right away.. the only time im on woohu is when im at stacys. But im glad that you think i have talent because all i need is a little.. i dont know.. encouragement. Thanks for being so kick ass

Erika

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