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| threshershark (profile) wrote, on 12-6-2003 at 9:53pm | |
| Music: Wild Age -- Warren Zevon Subject: @ Los abuelos |
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My and my parents tried to go to Maggie's Kitchen for breakfast, but it was closed. Instead we went to Big Boy's. I had the best pancakes I've ever had. Then I went to Family Christian Bookstores while my parent went to that store with the phones taped to the wall. They had these L337 deals on demo discs from these really obscure bands for only $4.95, but... the lady's cash register crashed and my parents dragged me away from there before it 'finished downloading' or something. On the way out I saw a rack with HM Magazine on it. Weird, I thought no one around here carried it. But I've got a subscription. Later Rachel and KT came over, and we had fun with the needle magnet thing. I forced them to read some of my manuscripts and got Rachel hooked on the Flaming Lips. Then I went to my Grandparent's for my cousins Jason and Sammy's birthday party. I had a great time. Jason got a muzzleloader that's almost exactly the same as mine. Sammy got a Strawberry Shortcake doll set, which I think is the only doll girls these days should be allowed to have. Barbie and the Bratz are a bit on the slutty side. Then me, Jason, Audra and my sister played a game of Uno. We added two decks and didn't shuffle them. It took forever. We all had about twenty cards at a time because we played the 'take cards until you get one you can play' rule. Then we changed the rules a bit and I won. As I was leaving, I was looking up at the stars and at the bushes with lights all over em and I thought, wow, God is amazing. He's given me a great family, all this stuff, fun times... even when I am the way I am, so discusting. And I stood expecting this big wave of guilt to pour over me, and the sudden, overpowering realization of how unworthy I was... but it didn't come. I was just happy, and I knew I was unworthy, but still I realized how much God loved me and that He'd forgiven everything I've done... I guess He just wanted me to enjoy that moment. Maybe I'm just a little hard on myself. Yeah, I'm a failure, but God loves me anyway. |
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Shinigami | 12-06-03 10:10pm That's an awesome way to look at it. I'm glad you don't feel guilty anymore. |
l0ser | 12-06-03 11:09pm By chance is your Audra Audra Davis? |
| threshershark | Re:, 12-06-03 11:10pm No. Good guess, though. |
| Anonymous | dream child, 12-08-03 4:04pm my god-daughter started crawling on her oldest brothers birthday and i missed it! *cries*
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