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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 12-11-2003 at 12:13pm | |
| Current mood: tired Music: the silence of the room Subject: my tummy hurts :( |
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hey.. im sitting in study right now im opretty bored theres onlye 4 other kid in here... i just got back from lunch ouchies my utmmy hurts.. i had a chicken thingy and tator tots.. but it made me feel sick sooo yesterday i had teh worst headache ever!!! ouchhhhhh i went to sleep so i would be able to go out later with my daddy to get nmy x-mas tree n stuff.. and i didnt wake up until morning! ahh 13 hours of sleep.. thats crazy, my dad said he cam in and tried to wake me up like 3 or 4 times but i wouldnt wake up! if you ask me, thats pretty creepy! i woke up at 3 am tho.. i was crying from a dream i had :( it was about my mom.. i forget exactly but i know thats what it was... hummmm today is a very deppressing day i feel so sad.. seeing mike and jimmy and stuff and not having them say anything in return makes me very sad, and nastolgic.. i dont understand why when life throws me something that will actually make me happy, it just takes it away and brings me something to cause deppression. i dont understand the logic in that at all... having something to make me smile and then ripping it from my grasps without warning.. its quite upsetting... well... its so silent in here it creeps me out... im gonna write a poem... i already wrote one in the first half of study in a note for liz.. but hey theres always room for another ;-) as these delicate fingers tap the keyboard so diligently thoughts swirl through this brain of mine not rhyming or to any sort of beat just my thoughts my hopes and my dreams people say they dont understand why i do what i do and why i am the way that i am.. i cannot give u a clue or an explanation or two i just am, who i am the silence of the room beffudles me and i feel as if everyone is watching everyone is inspecting what i am doing what i am thinking the whispers ooze into my brain my self conscious ego and i am broken down i am read i am examined... lost in this whirlwind of allibies i am forbidden to watch them as if some tainted fruit will have poisoned me can i not envision them? can i not see what they do? the definity overturns my body and i am overcome.. taken within its grasps and smothered by words silver plated words... words as i fade off.. words im finally out of words... humm well thats an interesting one.. im surprised it wasnt rhyming, ive been getting into that lately.. well ill enter later.. bu bye -mandie |
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Cocopuff | I LOVE U!!!, 12-11-03 10:53pm Amanda i love u soooo much!! and i really want evenrthin for u to b goign rigth and im sry its not rigth now.... im always here for u if u need tot alk or jsut to cry!!! i love u and i always will!!! u deserive nothign but the best!!!! Im so happy to have u as my friend, and i know that we will b friends foever!!! u halp me with soo much and i want to tak u for always being there for me!!!! Ur poems are FANTACTIC!!!! everythign u write is soo beautiful.... just like u!!!!! I love u just the way u r..... and don't go changin for ppl, beacuse if they don't liek u how u r then there fuckin stupid!!!!! NEVER CHANGE!!!!!! i love u too much!!!1 ill never stop loving u!!!!!!!!
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| Anonymous | 12-13-03 11:43am I LOVE YOU!!...u kno who this is lol :) |