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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 12-13-2003 at 12:10pm | |
| Music: broken promises Subject: i miss the way things were |
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| No more lonely nights Baby thats just what you told me But you're no where to be found. Something just aint right Cuz I cant get you to hold me Even when youre around. Baby you promised me That you'd always be there for me Tell me Whats on your mind? [Chorus] What happened to the I love you's? The hugs and kisses and the rendevous? What happened to me and you? You said you'd never change. What happened baby talk to me You used to be sugar sweet just like candy Now your breakin my heart With all your broken promises. Open up your eyes Baby thats what people tell me (thats what they say) But its hard to let you go. I cant take your lies If your spending time with somebody else Then you gotta let me know. You promised me that you'd never run a game on me Tell me whats on your mind. [Chorus] You say your gonna do this You say your gonna do that But you never come through. And so its different lately Cuz you dont call me baby I just dont know what to do... everything is different.. this life cant possibly get harder than this... ::knocks on wood:: eveyrhitng around me has swiftly changed.. although some may have been needed it still makes me sad to think of all of teh memories... liek with meg, i do miss the times we spent toegther we were like inseprable i mean we went tp firggin las vegas together.. its torture to knwo that things will never be the same again... with joe... it paisn me so much to know that he doesnt even think of me liek i do him. its not fair this immense pain kills me.. its almost 12*20 and i bet he wont even come up here to see kels em and chris n i its so horrible, he doesnt call me anymore doesnt ask me to visit anymore i cant understand why things have to change liek this. with emily.. why does a school have to make a difference like that... its not fair why does it have to take her away from me.. all teh summer nights that we went to the mall and scoped out hot guys.. life was sooo free from pain nothing could vere us off our track. there were no drugs.. no alcohol to make us have a good time.. we did it on our own.. now its the weed that brings us together and it makes me so sad to think that beczu i love emily shes always going to be one of my best friends i mean some change is good, i mean if i staye din my little cacoon of friends forever i wouldnt have met liz or holly and i would never have become who i am today.. and i love who i am not bette rthan the little scared girl i was before... i miss katie and me and kels n meg always going to dug pond i mean my world revolved around you guys.. its not fair how time can rip people appart it makes me sick to think of hown fdifferent me all are now, even after vowing never to change.. the force of nature has ripped us appart.. but i still love you.. i miss chris.. i miss the nights at the mall with joe and hoim and kelsey and wed just wander around aimlessly while joe would spit on opppl haha and going in teh back hallways and being with joe alone.. and getting our pictures taken and him coming over my house and singing i wasnna knwo to me its soooo horrible this hurt wont ever go away these scars cant ever be erased the tears that stream down my face are an odd sort of lace around me they hold me i wish it was you the things that you told me were they the truth undo this ribbon from my eyes cnat you see that i love you its no surprise yes i still think of you your always on my mind cant put you out of my brain cant leave you ebhind cuz love like ours, so juvenile , but true each kiss that youd give me there was no1 better than you my first for alot of things you gave me ur heart poured your tears on my shoulders dont let us drift appart cant see you anymore, theres so many miles i miss the sound of your voice, miss the sound of your smiles the candycane loving, on these winter nights your warmth made my candle, my love light burn bright i cant see you crying, do you pain like i do? would u want to see me, do u miss me, is it the truth? cant take the pain thats forced in my soul dont want any presents, give me coal the warmth of teh fire cant warmmy heart cuz ill pain for always, as long as were appart.... i love you always and forever joseph michael russell... - amanda... http://expage.com/joesephmichealrussell |
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| Anonymous | emmy, 12-13-03 12:38pm omg amanda...i was crying before and now i am crying again...i miss you all so much..i miss joe ssooo much 12*20 is comin up and it does make me sad how none of us can talk to him anymore..or see him..we just think of him...and chris i miss him sssoooo much and i love him so much..and i hope he knows that...amanda i miss the summer and ur exactly right...me and u use to go to the mall and have the times of our lives...just us..no drugs..no alcohol...and it really has changed and me goin to keefe has made a big difference in everything..but i like keefe...and i really really do miss natick dont think that i dont..and all my kennedy buddies i miss them too..even the ppl that i hate i miss...:'( i dont wanna cry no more...i cant help it..i want everyone to know that i miss them..and i do think about u guys all the time...and for joe...i miss him so much for the past week i would be crying myself to sleep listenin to the sad cd that amanda gave me..that was dedicated to joe...i have changed amanda...u kno that i have..and u have too..and thats the sad thing...we told eachother that we never would..thinking everything would be the same between us for the rest of our lives..we were wrong..young and stupid lol everything HAS changed..and we cant help it...u have your new friends..i have my new friends...but its like i said..New Friends. Old Friends. Always Friends...i love you amanda maltz...so much that you have no idea!! i miss you ssooo much i cant take it anymore...im out...byebye i love you all...*emmy* |
krazykelc1 | 12-13-03 1:53pm Amanda that is the saddest entry I have ever read... And to think about all the possible things I might be doing ONE WEEK from now..((on 12*20))..scares me. I know I might not get to see you..Emily..Joe..and Chris...all together that day.. but to think that it doesn't affect the guys as much as it effects us really hurts. This is the one time of the year when I ACTUALLY think about how much things have changed..everythign was so perfect last year before Joe moved. Even though we knew he was leaving no matter what, we never thought about it..cuz it ruined the fun. Everyday Christmas Vacation I would wake up...and we would make plans to hang out with Joe or Chris..either go to the mall..or your house..or wherever. And then all of a sudden I woke up one morning and I knew I wasnt going to see Joe...because he was getting ready to move...And bit by bit all of the stuff in his house was taken away and so was he.. and another thign that kills me is the fact that he doesnt even know how much I care about him..or how I think about him EVERY day of my life..Of course I've moved on...and I've met other guys since last year but nothing will ever take the place of Joe..
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Anonymous | emmy, 12-13-03 10:14pm damn..my entry made me cry..now readin urs kelsey makes me even more sad..its all so so true..i never thought everything and everyone would change so much...and it really really has..and its so sad and is sucks..i miss the way things use to be..if could..i would do anything to get everything back to the way it was last year...with joe..chris..ana..prida...everyone..all of us together again...the memories will last forever... |