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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 12-16-2003 at 11:00pm | |
| with each tear that falls from my cheeks a memory is soaked up in the threads of my clothing kelsey elisabeth rose dunne.. there is nothing that i can say to you, that you would tell me is right. to you im wrong in everything i do. you tell me i dont care about you.. you tellme that im not ur best friend you tell me that these tears mean nothing. when they each mean something as the splatter upon this desk of mine. they do mean something burning my dry eyeson the way out. they do mean something when you tell me you dont care. when you tell me your leaving when u tell me that the kids are better there. kelsey it hurts to know that ur not needed.. and thats all that people want in this world. i can admit that i began to take out freindship for granted. and that i expected that youd always be there for me. but as they say u dont knwo what you have until its gone, and i have realized it before youve left in hopes of changing my fate... in health we learned about different types of ppl. you are the hider you hide from the problems, and hold them in you until they all boil up and then you spazz on the person whose bugging you and you yell about everything and their mother. things that happened long ago. instead of waiting until things get out of hand to tell me, you should let me know the things i am doing wrong. im not a mind reader. tell me so that i can change. i talked to emily on teh fone tonite i lost her.. one of my best friends. and ive realized why it didnt kill me as much as this is.. becuz i know that she misses me, and that she cares about me. but u dont care that your leaving me. i balled myfriggin eyes out. and its not even definite i cant handle losing you, even if it is just to another school. it pains me to lose you. i feel as if i am alone. sitting in a snow storm.. freezing to death. like i am some stranded person, with a crew of stranded people as well waiting for someone to rescue them. but slowly each one of the survivors begins to walk away, to leave me on my own in the wilderness.. where i know nothing.. and the search party, my saving grace, never comes. and i am left to rot there on my own. alone. the worst way to die. you may think i am being over dramatic and crazy about this, but u dont understand me when i tell you that and that you amaze me, with your beauty with your exuberance with every word that you speak. your laughter is infectious and i cant help but smile when i see you. undo everyhing that ive said, every lie ive ever hid behind and every lilly white comment i may have made. and you have me alone, and bare. sitting for all to see, for all to look at. me i see many mistakes in myself, many flaws. but you, you told me never to change. and that, that brings joy to my life. that fact that you love me just the way that i am. i want you to be able to enjoy yourself and if you want to go to keefe im not holding you back. but what i need to hear from you honestly, is that youll miss me. and that u care that u are leaving me. unty these red stained ribbons.. and look me in the eyes and tell me u dont care about me...cuz i dont believe it i dont want to believe it... dont let my nightmares become reality. i love you kelsey.. whether you like it or not |
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LiLShOrTy | 12-18-03 10:14pm Manda oh how i love you oh so much! Your so awsome and i'll always be here for you, anytime you need me just talk to me and i'll always listen.
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