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 | SeraphimRhapsody (profile) wrote,
on 12-26-2003 at 11:04pm |
Current mood: anxious? still disconnected
Subject: slip. fall. maul. : )
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I haven't much to say today.
I wasted my life on Neopets today.
MmmMMmmMmm
I'm really self-conscious about how I look right now. Moreso than usual. My skin is peeling like mad.. and it's down to like below the lowest layer. I may decide not to go out of the house anytime soon.
I found what I'd forgotten to add to my journal. You know... when you put off updating and then do the updating like I do one tends to forget somethings... So here, props to Lauren for.. allowing me to steal her update. (SHHHH She doesn't know yet but we won't tell her will we? No we won't!)
All in all, christmas was rather disappointing. Don't get me wrong. It's got nothing to do at all with the presents. Well, no.. wait.. yeah, I got some things quite irreplaceable to me.. So that's not really it. I didn't want anything that I didn't get; mostly because I wanted about 2 things. Well, I didn't get a car, but you know... Can't set my hopes too high. But this year I have just totally lost my enthusiasm for Christmas in general. I'm just like ehh, it was here, now it's over. We didn't decorate the house at all, not even putting ornaments on the tree, only lights. We mildly decorated.. I believe there's a strand of lights somewhere down there.. and one ornament is sitting on the table.. Tree? That was it. I realized in the car two days ago that the main reason I must not have realized it's Christmas is that I didn't realize we weren't even putting up the tall fake Christmas tree. No. All we have is a 3ish foot tall fake tree with needles that change colors. No lights. No ornaments. Dear God when have we ever not gotten the big box of ornaments down and decorated the tree as a family??? I just don't know what's wrong with me, I love Christmas. But I'm thinking that maybe it's because I have so much to look forward to right now that are better than christmas. I'm looking forward more to going to PA than I normally am for Christmas, and before last week I was looking forward to break more than I normally am for Christmas. Yeah, maybe that's it. Wait... No.. I'm not going to PA... Sure, I very much looked forward to break.. but.. Christmas... So maybe it's not that I've lost my enthusiasm for Christmas, but it is diminished by other things going on? Dunno. I've just been pondering it. I've been doing everything I can to get myself in the Christmas spirit. Listening to Christmas music and stuff. I haven't been able to stand Christmas music this year. Can't stand it. I can listen to maybe a few songs if someone else wants to hear it... but I just can't.. listen to it like usual. Repression? Maybe it's because there weren't gifts to look forward to since the only thing I really wanted I went out and bought for myself. But it's not just the gifts. It's always just Christmas in general. Just seems to not be there.
I hope Lauren doesn't mind me stealing and editing her post.......... But she won't be here to tell me so until she gets back... So yeah.
With love
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Question of the Day
Have you ever felt like you wasted a day or so of your life? Have you felt it often?
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DragonSpeaker | rawr., 12-27-03 12:15am I'm not serious enough right now to really respond to the first part, but I was surprised to know that I wasn't the only one experiencing a startling amount of apathy this year. I think it's part of what they call adulthood, but that is such a bleak outlook...
Anyways.
Yay! Great title, if I do say so myself. ; )
I don't think she'll mind since you gave credit. Sometimes people say things that you wouldn't or couldn't put into words, and sometimes they say it better than you or I can. This might be one of them. Rock. (Parenthetical to Lauren. She's rackin' 'em up!)
I think I waste more days of my life than is right or fair. Most of those wasted days were spent in school, rotting in some desk while I'm being "taught" about something I could learn in a quarter of the time if given a decent book and a solid block of quiet time. But I'm not bitter. ¬¬
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SeraphimRhapsody | Re: rawr., 12-27-03 1:07am You're too quick when I post. What, do you get a reminder post whenever I update? lol.
I beat you this time though: Update when you've been kicked off! ^.^
Bitter... Course not.
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