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| butterflykisses37 (profile) wrote, on 1-9-2004 at 12:00am | |
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| aww fucker. I just lost everything I wrote because..ahh nevermind. I'll write it again. my list continues... glittery nail polish Rachel Libersat pink hair Davey Havok matching (that's including sex bracelets) Jennah LeBruno hot hot hot hot (like, the hottest you it will go) kind of showers dad's famous taco dip Adam Lazzara's hair the way Brice only wears orange pants and gets his shoes personally made Erin Adams cell phone games the way the Fabs seem to write on EVERYTHING in each of our rooms I'll add more if I think there's more, which there probably is.. so today. kinda sucked, kinda didn't. Alex was in a bad mood. -Hence, the day sucking.- none of the Fabs were in bad moods. -Hence, the day not sucking.- everything kind of evens out. I don't know anything anymore. I'm so confused about things. I don't know what I did to make Alex...hate me? no, he doesn;t hate me..I don;t know what I did to make him..act like he did today. Erin and Jennah are with their new...not boyfriends, but uh, boys of interest? and Rach is with her mom...but I need her!! because I'm sad and I neeeeed to talk someone's ear off..and she's the only one I can do that with, without being told to shut up. haha, okay, I just called Rach's mom's cell phone. I had to. I had to talk to her. and I did. and now I feel better and refreshed. I'm still kind of sad..but I feel better. I also talked to Mark. and I don;t know why, but that made me smile too. I feel...cared for...not a cared for like "I love you so much" or "youre so hot", but a cared for like, someone really cares. it's a good feeling. I like it. I love Rachel. I love Rachel. I want Rachel nowwww! (Jennah and Erin I love yuo guys too). earlier I felt alone. I was afriad to call Rach's mom's cell. Alex was playing football. and Erin and Jennah were at..yea, lol. but I don't know. it's better now. I want..ah, I want so many things. it's not easy. but, I don't know. I don't know I don't know I don't know. all I know is that I want something. I don't know exactly what it is..but I know..enough. and I also know that I'm making absolutely no sense now. Alex just told me that he's not happy. well, he didn't say those words exactly...actually, he did..kind of. he also said that since I'm happy, it doesn't matter whether he is or not. I don't know. whatever. |
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| Anonymous | i cant sleep, so i read your woohu, now i cant sleep, 01-10-04 1:55am if you mean happy with our relationship, i meant yes. but no, im not happy with myself right now. its nothing you did, its me as always (not being a jerk, i have realized it is always my fault). |
| Anonymous | me?, 01-11-04 4:57pm you need to add me on your list please???? i want to be added on there cause you cant leave out the clearwater dude
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