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| musicalbabe (profile) wrote, on 1-9-2004 at 8:34pm | |
| Current mood: sleepy Subject: I AM SOOO TIRED!! |
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| and i'm really not sure why... i think maybe homework tires me...*yawn* namely bio...history i've learned to handle somehow, but everything else is just tedious. math, french...it's killing me!! oh well, enough about that. mr. shaull talked more about concert choir today, though he still hasn't really mentioned how and when to audition. grrr!! he's always forgetting to tell us important details like that...it's as if girls' ensemble is such a nonentity that we don't deserve his full attnetion. okay, so it's not like that at all, but that's sort of how it feels. i just wish my voice was something i could be proud of so that i would feel good auditioning for concert choir... going to camp cambel for concert choir just seems like sooo much fun!! being somewhere else for a change, and doing nothing but sing and hang out...it just sounds so good. too bad i actually need talent and the courage to audition for it to happen. oh! good news, though! he FINALLY responded to my mom's e-mail about getting me a new voice teacher, and apparently my mom called her today and set up a lesson for 2 weeks from now!! yay!! 3rd time's the charm, right? maybe this person will actually help me!! my mom's away on some women's retreat thing for church, so it's just me and brian. it seems like he can't drive me anywhere without something going wrong or getting lost or something. he missed the turn on the way to church a few weeks ago and kept driving even though i informed him of his mistake, convinced that there was a cross street, and got completely lost. today his ignition or something was leaking so he had to keep stepping on the gas like 6 times to get the car to go and we kept sort of stalling...it was soooo scary!! he finally had to pull over (after making a wrong turn) and fill it up or something. *yawn* i really, REALLY don't want to do my homework!! ugh... :0( oh well...i've been feeling pretty gloomy recently. it all starts when i wake up in the morning. i wake up and think, 'i REALLY don't want to get out of bed! what's the use in getting up? what will be accomplished? i mean, REALLY, am i going to do anything fun today?' (then i run though the day's schedule...in this case, school, then horseback riding) 'well, horseback riding might be okay, but then again i might be put on Lulu or some other skittish mare who hasn't been out for 2 weeks...now that wouldn't be fun...just very frustrating.' so then i conclude 'nope, it isn't likely that anything will be especially fun, exciting, or memorable today.' i really blame all of this downheartedness at the lack of marching band. during mb season, it'd be more like 'hey! i have to get up early, but who cares? i'm going to marching band! and heck, i'm kind of proud of myself for being able to be up so early when the majority of my peers are still asleep! woohoo! i get to see all of my marching band friends and go to a competition this weekend!! yay!! maybe we won't get last!!' see how different those two are? it's either waking up to friends, music, and light excersise, or waking up to english, learning nothing, and being dissapointed that my once-favorite class is now boring and uneducational, not to mention possible harassment and embarassment from mr. smith. seriously, the guy jokes around with us and makes fun of our 'freshman' ways, but wouldn't it be more mature of him to leave us alone and maybe teach us something for a change? okay, i'm really tired, and sick of bitching about everything. i'm gonna go to bed now. goodnight. hope your 3 days of school were better, and homework load for the weekend not as heavy. |
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| Anonymous | Concert Choir!, 01-10-04 1:56am You have a great voice, Mel! I'll try out if you try out! I'm sure you would make it!!!!
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Anonymous | Re: Concert Choir!, 01-10-04 6:26pm i totally agree!! and i may try out too, but im not sure. o why not? i prolly wont get in anyway, so theres not really much of a schedule/getting-up-early-every-day-of-the-week issue there. but i do understand what u mean about mr shaull. i just feel like he expects us to read his mind and give him exactly what he wants, which is a little difficult, even if we do know what he wants. but thats just wat i think, and he is a good teacher and singer anyway. i shuld prolly get going on my homework, seeing as i've wasted most of the day already. luckily, it feels like i could have gotten the same amt of hw in one nite that i have for the whole wkend, so that's good. o and i gotta memorize my lines. ok, i shuld go. cya!
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musicalbabe | Re: Re: Concert Choir!, 01-10-04 6:58pm okay guys, conclusion time: we'll ALL try out!! okay? thanks for the compliment about my voice molly, and the one about my journal, rachel! and yes, i agree about the whole mr. shaull thing. sometimes even when i know what he wants, it's just not possible for me to DO it. i mean, if we could all imitate him, we'd sound REALLY good! (and oddly falsetto-ish...lol) it IS frustrating when he says 'can you hear the difference? can you think of what it might feel like to make that difference? okay, then DO IT!!' knowing what is desired, and accomplishing it are two very different things that should not and cannot go hand in hand. if i could sing as well as i want to, i'd be very proud of myself. lol.
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