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| rockon14 (profile) wrote, on 11-29-2002 at 8:04pm | |
| Current mood: blah Music: "As Long As He Needs Me" from Oliver Subject: Just rambling |
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| Hello all my beloved people out there. Yeah, it's been a while, a real long while. I"m just in a mood today so just go with me here. So today I was thinking about my mom and all. I don't really know why, i just supose i was. You know I never realized what she had ment to me until i was almost 12 years old. When she came back with that baby, for the first time in my life i needed my mother. I didn't even realize she was a freakin drug addict until i was 15 years old. Geeze. So I suppose i'm a freakin' idiot or something like that. I really get that feeling sometimes. Has anyone else ever felt like they were utterly alone. Like you could die next friday and no one would even bother to showup to your funeral. Al has Cory and I have myself. Yeah, i know i have friends, i just wish i knew where they were. Seriously I don't think if it really came down to it, there wouldn't be to many people there who actually cared for me. Yeah, let's all hang with Bekie, she's the freakin' blond idiot, let's all get a good laugh out of her. Geeze if he loves her so freakin' much and would just freakin' die if she were to say that maybe just maybe she would want to do something else with the rest of her life, then why does he want me to be 13 forever. Is that all I'm there for. That girl, the one just in case the rest of the world comes crashing down around your feet, at least she's got nowhere else to go. I just feel as though i'm not in control of anything anymore. God i feel like i'm 60. No one ever reads this thing anyway. |
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showgirlsweetheart | 11-29-02 11:52pm I read it.
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Music_chick018 | re:, 12-02-02 5:14pm Bekie... i love you. And i know that i don't really know how you feel but i want you to remember that you can always talk to me. You were my best friend in 8th grade and 9th grade and although bpth of us have moved on i want you to knw that i still consider you one of my bestest friends. I love you ... honestly. I wish i could take away some of your pain.Remember i am here for you.Oh, and if you were to die i would be at your funeral.And hey.. i know the you behind the spunky 17 yr old blonde.... you are so much more than that... and if no one can see it then they are blind. I love you. Cya at school
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