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| Rob (profile) wrote, on 12-1-2002 at 12:16am | |
| Current mood: unbelonging if thats even a word Music: Broadway Subject: A fish out of water... |
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| Here I am once again staying up and resorting to the old journal. Right now I am feeling very defensive everything people say I take it like there being mean, also I feel like I don't belong here in this house sometimes I wonder how I can be related to these people *not like there completly awful its just there so different* My mom, like usual is in super bitch mode and will never give it up. Today Dad has been such an ass for no reason, like he is so negative and angry all the time Today he was telling Mary how the dog is black and he was using words that I refuse to write. He is the strangest man I have ever met. I really dont have an opionion of him though, like he isnt someone who influences my life that much, well he does but its like he says things and stuff its just what he says I dont ever think about. He isnt someone I think of alot infact I dont think I ever think of him. He isnt like pure evil or anything just I saw Theresa's journal and I relaized my father isnt a very important person to me. He is just around and he really doesnt play a big role in my life. Sam and Sarah are here and I feel like hurting them both alot!! and when they read this they will want an explanation but I am not giving one so ha! Mary is driving me crazy is this what its gonna be like when its only me and her. God I shudder at the thought. I just feel like this house is too crowded for me and loud and I feel like I dont belong here, like I am not supposed to be in this house I cant really explain it and this whole thing might come off the wrong way. You know what I am not independent at all when something goes wrong in my life I can't ever deal with it by myself I think this is why I miss Sam so much cause now that I wont confide in her anymore I am forced to do things by myself and I am not idpendent at all I mean I just need guidance alot but maybe I shouldnt always look for guidance maybe its time I depend on Robin just a little more. and to the anonymous person I really wish to know who you are and why you wish to be anonymous. |
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| Anonymous | none, 12-01-02 7:31pm I think that you are more independant that you give yourself credit to. I know how you feel when you say that you dont feel like you belong in your house with people you can bairly relate to. Try finding the same common interests with you're mom or dad and maybe they can share or tell you something special. Atleast try to tell how you feel, that always almost will guarentee you a hug, if you already havent tried this. I still want to remain anonymous, sorry. But the time will come. Maybe Christmas if you already havent found out who I am by then. |
Rob | Re: none, 12-01-02 9:38pm I think that you were just being nice when you said I was more idepedent then I give myself credit for. but i apperciate it thanks
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Anonymous | Re: Re: none, 12-03-02 6:30pm So you doubt my judgement? |
Rob | Re: Re: Re: none, 12-03-02 7:54pm I suppose not I mean what reason would you have for just being nice because I dont even know who you are |
Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: none, 12-04-02 9:07am Time will reveal..Just dont doubt your self ok? Dont doubt the judgement of other either. |