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| kelso263 (profile) wrote, on 1-14-2004 at 7:59pm | |
| Music: Incubus Subject: I bite my tongue whenever you come around. Blood in my mouth beats blood on the ground. |
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| I'm not particularly good at anything. But, that's not too say I'm terrible at most things. I'm just average in all cases. I don't know what I want to be. I don't know how I plan to live. As I see it my life has no point at this time. I don't know where I'm going, or even where I'm coming from. I don't know much about myself right now. Which is hard to admit, but it's true. I'm trying to change. Trying to become more serious to the world. But...I, can't seem to fake responsibility. I have two exams tomorrow...and I haven't studied for either. I probably won't. But I won't fail them. And I don't know shit about each of them. But I'll pass...I always do. Things have a strange way of working out for me. I don't do much, and I get things I don't deserve. I shouldn't be in honors english, I don't know shit about writing. Nouns..verbs, that stuff still confuses the shit out of me. And another problem, I guess its bitching night...Girls. I don't like any right now, and yet I want a girlfriend more than I ever have. I think I just need...strangely, someone to talk to. Someone who is there for me. And no matter how gay that sounds, its probably true. I'm listening to Incubus and its really making me think. My mind is going at a pace I can't keep up with. When I close my eyes I see a blur. Blackness...speeding white light. I think its the sky. When I close my eyes I see shooting stars. I see millions of years into the past. And then I open them to see this screen I've seen more than recommended by any Surgeon General Warnings. |
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Kate | 01-14-04 9:11pm Could say in person to someone, what you wrote in this entry? |
| kelso263 | Re:, 01-14-04 9:17pm What? |
Kate | Re: Re:, 01-14-04 9:20pm If you were sitting next to someone, and you two were talking, could you open up to them just as comfortably as you can on the internet? |
| kelso263 | Re: Re: Re:, 01-14-04 9:24pm Probably not. I would feel stupid. |