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| behindmysmile (profile) wrote, on 1-18-2004 at 12:26am | |
| Current mood: numb Subject: What else could go wrong? |
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| Okay this is to britts comment thingy in the entry below this one:: Brittany, you are the reason dat i aint c*ut* myself in however da hell long its been, not steve, i dont give a fuck about steve, i mean yeah i care bout him, but he dont *care* bout me like you do, and i dont care wat he thinks, he barely even knws that i cut myself, so how could he make me stop..? Britt ur da one dats always been there fo me through all of this shit, your da one dats tryin to help me stop though its been a long tough road, your the one dat has never given up on me, no matter how many times you know u sould have.. And bout the whole depressed thing, you wouldnt know how im really doing anyway, i mean you ask bout you dont care anymore, to tell you the truth i have no had a all good day in fuckin forever, i cry myself sleep every single nite, i beg and pray for the all mighty god to take me away and fuckin kill me rite then and there, i scream and yell at him for not killin me the day before, i feel like fuckin shit every day that im alive, and if it werent fo you i would kill myself..I wish dat i had the strength to kill myself every day, you have no idea, its like i dont know how to xplain it, i dont feel anything anymore, like idont care bout my grades, i dont care bout my friends, my family, my life, i dont give a fuck anymore, i feel like numb from the inside out, i feel that nobody cares, and nobody sould, and i wish that nobody would, so den it wouldnt be so fuckin hard to kill myself!! Sooner or latah ill be strong enough, and *hopefully* ill still be going out wif steve, and dat will prove to you that tho i mite be happy cuz of him sometimes he still dont make me all happy and not depressed and shit, so dont fuckin say dat, u have no fuckin idea.. I dont know wat to say to you, to any of you, xcept one thing::If i were to die 2marro, jus know dat i luv you more than anything, and nothing could ever have changed dat ever, and dat you were a huge part of my life and who i was, even if it didnt seem like it, every word you said, every thing you taught me, ill remember forever, i luv you all..dont ever forget it.. If only i could die 2marro..=( | |
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xoxcrshonuxox | 01-18-04 12:44am Fawking stop tis Jillane!
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behindmysmile | Re:, 01-18-04 12:50am Wow you finally write in my journal lol
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| xoxcrshonuxox | Re: Re:, 01-18-04 1:17am I know itz been 4 -->> Meh sury!
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