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| werealljaded (profile) wrote, on 1-21-2004 at 10:21pm | |
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| have you ever wanted someone to say something to you, like you had this whole layout in your mind of what they're part of the conversation will be like.....and then they say the complete oposite? man, that's such a bummer. EXAMPLE: i started this conversation with a guy about the difference between liking a girl enough to date her or just to hook up with her. and i was HOPING he would say, "like you....i like you enough to date, so i could never hook up with you"...well complete oposite. TOTALY OPOSITE. he ended up saying, i could hook up with you but i can't picture me dating you. OUCH' see, the thing is...feelings towards dating and hooking up are COMPLETE different feelings. like, i would never hook up with a guy that i wanted to go out with-i'd be too afraid of ruining it. i hook up with guys that i am physically attracted to, but could never hook up with one that i REALLY REALLY like. i know this sounds crazy, but there is a point behind the madness. the reason is that(to me-maybe not every girl) if feelings get built up for just a lust buddy, then you just get hurt b/c you know it won't amount to anything more. i am sick of not getting anything more. tired of jsut settleing for hooking up. for the past year that's all i've done. i'm ready for the real deal. V day is coming up and this year is going to suck b/c i have no valentine. :(. lol oh~well, maybe next year. the thing is, i say i want a relationship, but right now, i have two prefectly great guys who want that with me...but i don't want them that way. they're cute and sweet and all, but for some reason i just don't like them. i hate how you never like the guys who you should...i hate how you can't control matters of the heart, and the more you do...the more it takes over. so it's not that i can't get anyone, just nobody i want. |
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iwishiwerehere | fortune cookie advice <3, 01-22-04 6:33pm Keep your head up kiddo...love is one of those things that you really have to wait for especially if you anything like me...and from what ive read i m almost certain that i have some of your qualities in a way with my love life...love will find you when you're least suspecting it.. |
| Anonymous | Me again :), 02-11-04 2:57pm You were talking about that in the car today. And it's so true. I see you know Sharif ^. That would be my ex boyfriend, lol. What a small world, no? Byee <33 |