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| sandatthebeach (profile) wrote, on 1-22-2004 at 1:53am | |
| Current mood: numb Subject: lit presentation tomorrow |
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| i don't feel liek sleeping...i'm tired but don't wanna sleep. do me a favor....everyone (who's not under my friends list) please leave me a comment saying that you're reading it....i'm curious as to how many people have actually been reading it. my head's spinning. i feel dizzy. this has been quite an eventful night i haven't even done anything. having people comment in that last entry...it's like whoosh. i feel stupid. very very stupid. can i just make it clear that i said alot of things from a spur of the moment? i don't think emotions aren't very consistant and like jealousy, anger, frustration all die down after time. much like happiness...you're not happy all the time nor are you sad. things that i said dealing with how i was feeling changed after posting....like..i don't know....i don't know how to explain anything. i'm awful at this game. i feel....basically like an idiot. good job sandy kim ::pats self on back:: you're a genius. (sarcasm) oh lordy...i don't know what to do. i feel liek crawling in a hole and hiding. but i don't. i don't know waht i'm saying. let's see....oh yeah...how am i gonna survive joseph? things are disappointing. i guess i'll be on running crew for costumes cuz they'll need more help. and while i help people change i can sing at the same time! ::gasp:: guess what? freichels might not even put me onstage. nope. all because i can't dance. wonderful, eh? it's kinda disappointing. it's like "woo i made the musical" "oh yeah, i'm gonna have to see you" "oh don't bother coming cuz you won't be seeing my face" my parents are gonna be so disappointed....the look on their faces when i told them i finally made a show. they were so proud....guess things don't change. i shall forever dwell behind the curtains. don't get me wrong...omg i love it backstage...that's where i belong...but i don't know...i wanna be onstage every once in awhile...be recognized. cuz typically the actors are the only ones who get recognized for the "hard work" people don;t even know that there are people backstage who do just as much work and give the actors all the credit. like i don't know...i wanna be recognized you know? cuz i'm always the one who's not noticed...arhg just argh. it was hurtful when freichels told us (the girls who aren't dancing) that for some songs she might have us sing backstage and "support the sound". don't get me wrong..i'm thankful for amking the show...that's so cool....but i've been having so many disappointments. first it was the you're not a dancer thing...then it was i don't remember...now it's you might not be onstage. ::sigh:: i better go to sleep....probably won't happen soon though...now that i'm wide awake. bye bye Always, Sandy |
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angryjewgirl | Hi!, 01-22-04 9:13pm |
angryjewgirl | woops, 01-22-04 9:20pm Hey Im sorry you feel frustrated but you know thats just how life is sometimes and ya gotta go with the flow. Yes, I know it sucks. Haha.
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sandatthebeach | Re: woops, 01-22-04 10:12pm lol gracias...you know i know in the end this will all be an enjoyable experience....::sigh:: maybe things will be better next year...like a better musical?? LOL anyways....yes i miss razzle even though i was backstage for that...but i chose to be backstage so it's all good |