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| robbingnovember (profile) wrote, on 12-7-2002 at 2:31pm | |
| Current mood: weird Music: Pixies. yay Subject: Hey Paul, lets have a ball |
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| i suck at life I don't know why, what? I just want to write today because i feel like it. I feel like everythings slipping. I don't know what to do. I feel like i need to hold on to nothing. That way nothing will change. But what if i want it to. (This song makes me sad i don't know why. ) I don't feel like being nothing anymore. But i'm not ready to fall. to fail. I'm so bored. Fuck. o- so bored. o so tired. o so wanting to cry because my life isn't what i wished it would be. But theres nothing i can do about it. Something change. Now. I'm sick of myself. No one likes me. Or finds my presence worth commenting about. The one who gives and never recieves. I think i deserve a complement once and awhile. unless i don't deserve it at all. If you cant say something nice don't say anything at all. I just want to keep writing. AHHHH someone kill me . i don't want to go ugh the things i do . Someone fall in love wih me. please. I think i have pms everyday. I'm unworthy but love me. lets have a ball. yay. I want one. I'm rambling but i care not. I only like buddhist monks. I just want to listen to this song over and over and die. Love me so i can. a life without love is no life at all. I want to go to heaven. (ehh?) say that i truly lived. Say something I'm sick of this akward silence. Ironic. I don't want to write the report. I'm not in the mood to have fun. Everyone sucks today. Thanks for calling. no one . I might see starting line to night Top Ten regrets, most foolish things said (in no particular order) 1. not taking band in middle school 2. not practicing 3. not keeping in touch with all of my lost friends 4. not studying or working harder 5. not being cool in the middle school 6. not visiting my grandma the day i should have. 7. Not being my self. for all the times. especially when i totally screwed up all my chances if i had any. I think about it all the time. perhaps this is my biggest regret at this time 8. Not talking to you sooner(not so good maybe will take it out) 9. Travis.. or maybe i just handled it the wrong way. 10.Art. not doing it bonus: i regret that i suck. it makes my life suck I suck all in all. the end |
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wannabe | 12-07-02 10:18pm sarah does not suck. i love sarah and so does everyone else and i am going to give a speech like mine at your wedding too.
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| Anonymous | 12-11-02 10:38am travis was not your fault. =)
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