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| sherriffsteve (profile) wrote, on 1-26-2004 at 6:59pm | |
| Subject: Just Another Day |
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| Well, it's been a long day... sometimes things don't work out the way we all expect them to, but there's nothing we can do about it. Times change, people grow up, move on, and the next thing you know we've become the people we hate the most. I've always wondered maybe if would took advantage of the good things in life, and stop focusing on the bad, that there would be less pain and more beauty. You know, sometimes, I wake up in the morning and hate being me. I think about all the things in my life that are hurtful, like Ryan and I breaking up, or Michelle's monolouge, or Matt taking his month vacation, or Nick's leg, or Marisa collapsing in the middle of the hallway balling her eyes out, or my dad getting his infection back. I think about these every morning and wonder what they add up to. Does it make me better than any of you that I can say, "I've been through that." The truth is, is that it doesn't. Just more trials, and test's of our faith that make us stronger individuals, molding us into who we are. Stop dwelling on the past, it gets you no where. If it does anything it makes you weaker. Though all these things seem to bring me down, there is one thing that will always stay true in my life...and that is God. He is the one to drag me out of any mess, that I put myself into. No matter what the cost. Some people find it strange to love a God who's "not there all the time" or who "doesn't answer their prayer's." Well...have you ever thought about what you were asking for. God is not just a one way street If you ask things from Him, He asks things from you. Is it so hard to do the will of God when all He asks is that you love eachother, and worship Him? It confuses me sometimes to know that no one understands the truth that I hold. That no one gets how powerful He really is. I guess it's going to take a while. In the meantime...don't give up. | |
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yersmilefadesinthesummer | 01-26-04 10:24pm I understand exactly what you mean. I am so sorry that my monolouge upset you. I am really am. I was only trying to be honest, and I guess I shared too much, or maybe it was just too real. I dont know. Im sorry. |