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| chuckitatthewall (profile) wrote, on 1-26-2004 at 9:04pm | |
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| hello. so today was very boring. i hate school a lot. during religion class i was drawing on my book and when we were reading out of it i decided to ask jennifer if i could add a "decoration" to a picture in her book. At first she didnt want to give it to me because she doesn't trust me to be nice to her stuff but eventually she did and i drew what i think is a very nice set of wood chuck teeth on this woman who is smiling. i am very proud of my artistic abilities. so during 6th and 7th periods i have to listen to luc and a.j talk about pretty much anything and they never stop. so then luc decided to talk to jessie who sits in the row next to mine and i thought i he was talking to me. he was saying some mean things i dont remember so i said "shut up luc" and then aj turned around and said 'did you think he was talking to you?" and i said "yes" while my face turned red. it wouldnt have been so bad if i hadnt changed colors. stupid pale skin. during recess i found out something really gross. there is a girl named elizabeth and she has this creepy stalkerish crush on this guy, seth. she has pictures of him without his shirt on and pictures from behind a fence. she also writes "elizabeth loves seth" a lot of places. its really really weird. so on one of the tables in the science lab somebody wrote "elizabeth wants to fuck seth" and she was crying and he was pissed. i have a bit of sympathy for her but i dont think she should of taken her crush to the point that seth is afraid of her. so in a way i think she kind of desearves the humiliation. i am very mean. jessica, i am sorry but i'm gonna do it again. so this is a very nice "knock knock" joke from a movie. knock knock. (you) who's there? go fuck yaself i dont really know why but i think that it is really funny. during p.e today we had to do this really gay thing to practice our lay ups. i hate basketball and i am really bad it. so we spent about half the period practicing them then we got to go and play basketball on our own. i've discovered throwing a basketball at a target is very difficult. i think a war between me and jessica (toni ann on my side) began after i gave a really hard high five to her for fun cause i know it hurts. (once again i'm mean) so we were trying to hit eachother with the ball. i threw it at her and missed. she threw it at me and she hit my stomache. i threw it at her and i missed. she kept it for a while and make a basket then i tried to get the ball. a little while later she threw it again and it hit my stomache. then i got the ball and waited for her to get near then threw it at her and i missed again. then i gave toni ann the ball and she threw it and she missed. so jessica won the little battle. dude there is this bitch named jessica (l) from my school and she is a prep. with a big ass attitude. i just went on my other sn to see if someone blocked me and then she imed me and asked me who i was and stuff. then she said "whats up" and i said "nothing" then she said "bye" stupid ass bitch. its not like i really care if she likes me because i know all the popular people hate me but at least be nice. nothing bothers me more than people who are mean and rude. i cant wait to graduate and get away from them. i'm gonna had her to my list of people i want to inflict severe pain upon. i really hate that feeling when you are so mad you want to cry but you are not that sad. i feel like that a lot. i'm sure if i think about my aunt or mr.vane though it will only be a few seconds before i cry. i think its amazing how just one rude thing can completely chang my mood. i'm too sensitive. i need to work on that a lot. last night as i lay in bed i realized that i hadnt cried since wednesday and i was trying to make it a week without crying but then someone says something and i cant. i made it 5 days though...pretty good. in the beginning of last year i felt like i was strong and doing good. i listened to my sister's problems and didnt get upset by anything. the only emotion i knew was stress and happiness, not sadness. now it seams like i know a form of happiness and stress and sadness. (if you are tired of hearing about me "evaluate" myself i'd stop reading if i was you.) i think that i'm slowly coming out of this "depression" which is good. i'm tired of it and having people say "i know these deaths have affected you a lot but everyone dies". yes, the deaths have affected me a lot but i dont want sympathy. i want to do it myself. my mom likes to play the hero too and try to solve all my problems with a doctor or something. i feel like this entry isnt really complete but i'm tired and hungry. bye. |
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LittleDamion | 01-26-04 11:20pm It's really embarassing when I yell at people when I think they are trash talking me and they aren't. People said I was obsessed with my crush and I was a stalker since I new their schedule; I guess I am a little ^^...but that's okay, she's worse. Basketball...such a funny sport. I'm glad I'm not on a team, too much practice. Heh heh heh...I'm pretty preppy, but I know the kind of preps you talk about. They are so annoying. Sensitivity, I am way too sensitive sometimes...you read the journals, you should know. |
chuckitatthewall | Re:, 01-27-04 10:07pm i know i hate it when i do that. i'm pretty sure that no one can be that obsessed with a crush. once i drove passed to some guy's house that i liked but thats not as bad i dont think. there is nothing wrong with being sensitive unless its obnoxious sensitivity. bye |
LoupGarou | 01-26-04 11:42pm Congrat-ulay-ships on the not crying thing (and I'm not being sarcastic. I'm serious).
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chuckitatthewall | Re:, 01-27-04 10:22pm thank you jessica. i worked hard. lol. scary third graders *hides*!
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