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| jburt1 (profile) wrote, on 1-27-2004 at 10:40pm | |
| Music: anniversay "to never die young" Subject: the faith question |
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| Today we had a guest speaker: Fr. Richards from PA. He was definitely the most controversial speaker we've had thus far. His presentation - or whatever you call it - made me think. I'm going to hell. At least, if I died tomorrow I woud go there. He said that missing mass is a MORTAL sin...didn't know that one. I guess entertaining impure thoughts is really bad too. And he says that we need to go to confession once a month. Yeah, I haven't been to confession in at least 2-3 years. I used to think that God was easy going, and that as long as you were a good person you'd go to heaven. This guy suggested otherwise. Right now I sound a little light with the subject matter, but it actually scared me a little bit. HELL... FOREVER...ETERNITY...FOREVER AND EVER...scary. Even heaven for eternity sounds scary. I know this is probably just my mortal mind thinking in mortal ways, and that if I went to heaven, I would probably be happy forever and not know the concept of time...but when I think of eternity I think of never ending, sameness, repetition...it gives me the chills. Mortality doesn't bother me as much because I know one day it will end. Nevertheless, as it stands, I don't have a good relationship with God at all. Basically, he serves me, rather than the other way around. I want to be a better person. I don't want to go to hell. But how can someone change who they are? Sometimes I feel like I have a black heart. I don't even feel sorry for some of the sins I've committed. Sometimes I don't feel anything at all, and if I do "feel" something, sometimes I just imagine that I feel that way. See how hard it is to be a Catholic? I should just convert to Buddhism. | |
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Randomperson | 01-28-04 11:54am Buddhism sounds good. I'll join you. |
randomperson | Re:, 01-29-04 12:17pm another note... check out Fr. Richard's REAL website at
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unbleachedblond | 01-30-04 10:18am i got a similar reaction from his talk. i realized im going to hell as well. i do skip mass and i do do things that im sure isnt uh what god wants. what i struggle with is the whole life after death thing. how do we know that there really is a heaven or hell or pergutory? what if we spend our whole life here on earth trying to be good or whatever only to find out that we;re jus gunna get thrown 6 ft under and we;re done. personally, id rather thoroughly enjoy my life and get the most out of it while i can and am physically/mentally able to. this could be really selfish of me but thats how i view it. and by getting the most outa it, im not saying what u do could be good either. i guess im jus not down with all the organized religion crap. i think im gunna convert to jillism. lol. |