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| musicalbabe (profile) wrote, on 1-28-2004 at 9:32pm | |
| Current mood: okay Music: Avenue Q-The Internet is for Porn Subject: don't have a heart attack, things are better |
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| sorry for the random outburst last night. things are much, much more stable now. i think i just get myself into an intellectual confusion sometimes...:-/ i really don't know about mr. smith. yesterday he told me that i reminded him of himself. (and then went on to make some semi-offensive joke about how he never thought he could find himself in a blonde, white girl. but whatever.) when someone puts that kind of serious...i don't know, respect? pressure? on me, it really gets me thinking. also, the fact that my other classes went pretty well, and that i was just in a good mood had an effect on how clearly/intensely i was thinking. but yeah. life goes a lot smoother when i take everything very lightly, and focus my thoughts on more distant things such as how a student's past work/test scores affect (effect? ya know, i never really figured out the difference. one's usually used as a verb, and the other as a noun, n'est pas? i could be really confused...) the grade a teacher gives to that student. that's really an interesting thing to think about. sometimes i REALLY feel like i bombed a paper/test/assignment, and still manage to do relatively well. (my english final, for example.) i got to thinking about this when mr. freeman handed back our tests today. he warned us all that it had been, by far, the worst test of the year. (in lowest scores, that is.) i had studied for that test in one night. well, i couldn't really have done anything else; he only gave us a day's notice. i felt like i had the memorization/factual part down pretty well, but the short answer (well, they're all short answer, but some of them can be done just by memorizing your notes) questions, which included things such as comparing certain aspects of two Enlightenment philosophe's ideas, i felt i sort of BSed my way through. i mean, i figured i'd get 3 or 4 points out of 5 for sure, but it would be a stretch to give me full credit for some of the stuff i wrote. i got an 85/90. the way mr. freeman explained it, that was in the top 5% of ALL of his classes. he even congradulated me for a job well done privately after class. here's the lowdown on my mistakes. 1 pt off-not explaining the fundamental principals of hobbes well enough 2 pts off-vocab (i never study vocab, it's such a waste of time. if you understand his packets when he includes those words, you obviously didn't have problems with them.) 3 pts off-short answer questions. there were about 5 short answer questions, 5 points each. i honestly did not fully understand what he wanted as an answer for...say, at least 3 of those. why did he give me the credit? he obviously read them! he was looking for mistakes left and right, obviously sick of reading the BS that other kids had made up! it just makes me wonder... oh, and i ended up getting a 90% on my english final, which was crap. it really was. the speech itself, in writing, was flawed in grammar, content, and format. i spoke too quickly, and babbled a few words. (i now realize that this WASN'T due to the fact that i am a poor public speaker, such is definitely not the case, i was just a stressed out psycho that whole week.) but even so, i got an A-. in my heart, i KNOW that that was not A- work. B at best. B-/C+ would have been an accurate reflection of my work. there are more factors that i could go into relating the fairness of teachers grading students, but maybe i'll explore that later. oh, and i still don't know what i'm doing about my birthday. no idea. for some reason, i just don't really care. my birthdays have been becoming less and less important. wow. 15. i'm still the same person! i just have a different number associated with my maturity. so the even itself really doesn't seem all that important! *shrugs* i'll get around to organizing SOMETHING, don't worry. i'm just not sure when... |
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PrimaJazzerina | 01-28-04 1:16am It was an A- paper. I didn't even read it, and I know that it was NOT a B/C paper. You have higher standards then others, that's why you don't realize how good the paper actually is compared to your class (not compared to your past essays). Yours must look like Shakesphere compared to "People should be allowed to burn CDs because they are expensive and besides the singers are rich anyways so it doesn't matter." B and C grades are average, and as long as you have complete sentences with lots of adjectives, you'll be fine... haha |
musicalbabe | Re:, 01-28-04 7:07pm haha thanks. that made me feel a tad bit better about myself. it's funny, i was okay before i called you, and now i'm thinking about the last 30 mins of my day at school (spent at girls glee) and now i'm depressed as hell. or depressed as fuck. i like the sound of the latter better. hmmm...i need to let some things out. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!! i feel...a tiny bit better. wait, no i don't. (sorry i had to get into this in a reply to a very nice comment.) |
mbellababe | 01-28-04 9:15pm Hey mel,
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