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| mle (profile) wrote, on 12-12-2002 at 10:31am | |
| Current mood: cold. uncomfortable. (fuckin dress code) anti-west Music: incubus - stellar Subject: |
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so we fought last night. over me going to washington dc for the march for life. hes not gona let me go. theyre being so fucking illogical that i couldnt stand it. i cant even talk about it im still so upset. this is where i say ive had enough... a walking open wound a trophy display of bruises and i dont beleive that im getting any better... and this apartment is starving for an agrument anything to break the silence... dont be a liar dont say that everythings working when everythings broken... im not laughing youre not leaving who do i think i am kidding? (dashboard confessional - saints and sailors) and stuff w/ lucass is happy again :) but idk. like, we were jokin bout the whole hump day thing. and i was like "yea, i enjoy making hump day a reality" and he gave me this whole "please, if i hadnt made a move.." so i was like "ok next time im gona rape u" and he told me how he would never let me go very far w/ me. thats good. very good. ive told him before "i dont ever want to be your booty call" (*cough* theresa *cough*). maybe its just me, but i dont even like goin at it like he was trying to. id much rather we get a couple innocent lil kisses in and he plays "you gave your love to me softly" lol. :) something ive been thinkin bout... matt is a good influence on me. <3 matt. like, last night i was lookin at the razor next to my bed. i thought of lucass and how its no biggie for him. we used to talk about it so openly (even in english class). but hten i thought of matt. and i said no. :) and im really happy lately. except the whole west thing. im so pissed at school right now. and i mean, besides school and the occasional homosexual experience w/ the parental units, life is fine. matt is happy. marcus is flirty. lucass is very much pro-mle. im actually doing my hw. i realize i have friends. yay. few more minor improvements and im perfect. and this is incredible, considering the fact that less than a few months ago, i was still ready to throw it all away. but now its so much different... mle |
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drunkslut | 12-12-02 2:06pm you cant even begin to comprehend how happy i am to read that last paragraph! happier than chad made/makes me feel! im SO glad to hear it! |