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| musicalbabe (profile) wrote, on 1-31-2004 at 1:30am | |
| This is the way That I state my independence That I'm no longer connected to your memory This is the day That I am making my defection, That I claim back the affection That you stole from me I used to hear your music so loud But it's all over Your just another face in the crowd I'm letting you know No more sad songs I'm letting it go now Switch off/switch on I'm letting you know You turned out the light I'm gonna be alright without you Turn the radio off No more sad songs These are the words To describe all your offenses You said love in the past tense Then you let it go Haven't you heard You are no longer respected You are formally rejected From the one you hurt I used to have the longing to hear What was in your heart But now it seems I'm over the fear Of this falling apart No more sad songs I'm letting it go now Switch off/switch on I'm letting you know You turned out the lights I'm gonna be alright without you Turn the radio off No more sad songs woah. so i'm randomly listening to old broadway music that i haven't listened to in ages (like 6 months to a year since i downloaded it) and looking through journals for old time's sake. i found that someone had posted this thing he wrote about eeyore in an AIM conversation with me in his journal. i dunno, just made me feel special again. that was one good thing about that situation...i always felt special. well anyway, i know i should REALLY be completely over that, seeing as it's been a loooooong time since, but with concert choir and all and actually seeing him around, i just get to thinking about it sometimes. but don't really, it's like really light thinking. i know i'm completely over it. it's one of those things that seems like such a thing of the past it's hard to believe it ever happened. well anyway, after this eeyore-relation confession thing, someone sent a reply, anonymus, that said, and i quote: "You wanna know something else about Eeyore? He has all these way cool friends, and he doesn't realize it. He's always just so sad. Eeyore doesn't realize how lucky he is to have all these cool friends that care about him: Pooh, Piglet, Tigger, Kanga, Roo, Rabbit, Owl, and Christopher Robbin. The list goes on and on....I think you connect with Eeyore in this sense too. I don't think you realize how many people really care about you." i can't help but think, did i write this? i seriously don't remember writing it...it's quite possible it wasn't. but it really seems like something i would have typed to him at the time. hmmm...idk. kinda cool though. HA. this so fits! i queued bup about 35 mins worth of music, and just now as i'm reading all this it goes to Why Did I Listen To That Man? from urinetown...how funny is that? found what i was looking for. strange how reading that still makes me happy even though those times were among the worst i've experienced...oh God and now i'm listening to Look At The Sky from Urinetown. ya know, i sorta miss that. i don't even believe it happened (the whole becoming emotionally attached online thing, not the other thing) now that i think about it, but...when it was good, i was so happy. and...i dunno...i'm proud of that happiness. ya know, i don't think it's the BOYFRIEND that people are proud of, i think that it's the hapiness they experience when with them that no one else can. *sigh* well the whole music-for-memories thing is working. i remember going to see Into The Woods...twice. i remember a heck of a lot about that show, actually. and 'little gurgles'...i think maybe i'll read in my journal what i wrote about that...and the whole 'damnit, he liked me!' entry. lol. God, i LOVE Into The Woods. I wish i could give you light but i live in the shadow i wish i could shine in your eyes The same way your beauty lights mine You control me My thoughts, my dreams, my emotions I am your puppet Why? I love you from a distance Intimidated. I dont know why I want you and Long for your touch, your presence. Love? Or a silly physical attraction? Maybe if i knew how to love and not avoid You're just too good. damn, if that was written for me... and now it rightfully goes to Kiss Me Kate-So In Love. sheesh. perfect. memories...pizza...sound of music... i really wish i could relive all that. it was just too good. awww now it's Oh What A Beautiful Morning from Oklahoma. sexy thomas and the even SEXIER guy who played the lead. omg brown curley hair like you would not believe! so great. and of course, his voice had that orgasmic tenor quality i'm so fond of. mmmmm.... ha. Adelaide's Lament. (Guys and Dolls) now THAT was a show to remember. right after Oliver...oh yeah baby...good but SOOO dramatic times. the whole kyle with his girlfriend in the same play stuff...and the constant updates from mackenzie...o lol and now i sit like 2 chairs away from her in girls ensemble. LOL. and the nonexistant hug of that night. and him apparently being sad, and me being OH SO HAPPY for that fact. wow...i was stuck on him for a long time... okay well, now the music's stopped (i'll queue up some more in a sec) but i'm going through old IM conversations. like OLD old ones. and ya know what i just read? (and realized?) the 'incident' was concieved (that's really the best word for it) almost EXACTLY, like within two days of TODAY. yes, TODAY. first time we seriously talked about making out...wow...ha. pretty funny. gosh, if i had just read this as a foreshadowing, i would have learned SOOO much! weirdness!! ahh josh groban. i remember that too. and pizza. and help. and...ya. that's all i can really say. ya...that's all. (*cracks up and nudges nicole* that mss concert last year...AHAHAAHAHHA!) apparently this is Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me by Clay Aiken (i've never heard it, though) Hold me, hold me Never let me go until you've told me, told me What I want to know and then just hold me, hold me Make me tell you I'm in love with you Thrill me (thrill me), thrill me (thrill me) Walk me down the lane where shadows will be (will be) will be (will be) Hiding lovers just the same as we'll be, we'll be When you make me tell you I love you They told me "Be sensible with your new love" "Don't be fooled, thinking this is the last you'll find" But they never stood in the dark with you, love When you take me in your arms and drive me slowly out of my mind Kiss me (kiss me), kiss me (kiss me) And when you do, I'll know that you will miss me (miss me), miss me (miss me) If we ever say "Adieu", so kiss me, kiss me Make me tell you I'm in love with you (Kiss me) kiss me, (kiss me) kiss me When you do, I'll know that you will miss me (miss me), miss me (miss me) If we ever say "Adieu" so kiss me, kiss me Make me tell you I'm in love with you (Hold me, thrill me) (Never, never, never let me go) (Hold me, thrill me, never, never, never let me go) funny. has the word shadow in it, the phrase 'never let me go' (a tear-jerker camp song...leaving no a jet plane) the word 'adieu' in it...now that's just sexy, and then there's 'kiss me kiss me'. (so kiss me...duhduhduhduhd so kiss me...from kiss me kate...yeah?) okay this has all been random. i'm sorry. it's 12:05. my dad's taking me out to lunch/shopping in less than 12 hours...oh lordie. well i'll stop and post this now. desole (luc actually turned in his 100 desole's today...it was great) for the lack of true moral or content in recent entries. |
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| Anonymous | 01-31-04 5:11am well, you are special... |
musicalbabe | Re:, 01-31-04 10:15pm i cannot thank you enough for writing that, whoever you are. *hugs* that really brightened up my day. |
Anonymous | Re: Re:, 01-31-04 11:12pm *hug* well i'm glad, happy birthday.
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musicalbabe | Re: Re: Re:, 01-31-04 11:45pm well, that's to be expected, i guess. but, just as a reminder, i wasn't a part of the whole 'bailing on your sister' thing, and i still think there was more to it than people just ditching her. and...i'd get worked up at the 'white trash' statement, but i'm not feeling up to it at the moment. |
musicalbabe | Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-02-04 11:00pm i'm afraid i didn't have enough of a reaction to your second post before. after thinking about it, i realize how disrespectful and uncalled for that was. it's nice that you revealed your identity instead of leaving me to wonder who thought i was special, but that was REALLY rude. i will always allow anyone to comment in my journal, but comments like that are not acceptable. no one can speak about my friends that way. and you really have a one-sided story of it all, anyway. so please, i don't ever want to hear anything like that about my friends again. you can diss me, but you can't diss the people who are dear to me. |
Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-03-04 12:25am i'm glad you think you have some kind of super power to tell me what I can't do. |
Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-03-04 6:50pm thanks mel, ure a superstar!
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Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-03-04 6:54pm hey super power guy, get a life! |
Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-03-04 8:48pm Just so you know the phrase "white trash, pretentious friends" does not need a comma. It should read "hard feelings against you and your white-trash pretentious friends." just so you know.
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Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-04-04 12:09am I find it hallarious that you want to attack me about some incorrectly placed comma. That only comes off as petty and desperate. good job! excuse, me, for, not, being, an english, major, hahah.....soo sad. |
Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-04-04 12:17am oh, and if you must insist on being an anal, grammatical bitch, there's no hyphen in white trash.
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Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-04-04 12:18am and you and your friends are still bitches! |
Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-04-04 1:01am ummm...i just found out my sister really doesn't have a beef with anyone so ummm.....ya, my bad. just a way overprotective brother who had a distorted view of events. so uhm yea, my apologies lol even though i know it means shit now, but it's coo i understand. |
musicalbabe | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-04-04 11:30am HAHAHAHAHA!! way to wake up to that fact... and wow, thanks guys!! good, strong, creative dissing! i'm proud!! and um yeah, it means shit now. you probably would have done better if you had not replied at all in the first place. i think it's hilarious how this all turned out...HAHAHAHA!! |
Anonymous | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-04-04 10:34pm Lol. This was an extremely productive thread. I especially liked the part when I was yelled at three times consectuively. Hahahahahaha. Geez, I can't even try to make a joke without someone biting my head off. Oh well. Anyway, this is really random but I felt like writing so there. Hope you're having fun doing bio Melissa! |
musicalbabe | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-04-04 11:21pm oh yeah, wasn't that great? sheesh. soo productive, i know. the only thing it produced was another wave of enmity between us (the masses of us pretentious white trash friends of deanna) and the clueless, overprotective, big mouthed brother. well, at least i've gotten 16 replies out of it!! (that always looks cool...LOL)
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