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Aaron (profile) wrote,
on 1-31-2004 at 11:06am
Current mood: Really fucking pissed off.
Music: The great below, Nine inch nails.
Subject: Oh, I'm sorry, do I sound BITCHY!!!???
hm...I wonder if just maybe there's a damn good reason for that.
1. I will read most things you write.
2. As arrogant as it sounds, I know pain and fear and what it's like to be "trapped" just a tincy bit better than MOST, not all, but MOST of you.
3. Yes, it's called intuition and a BRAIN. they make this lovely little combination that allow you to see just a bit deeper than the surface.
4. It's called "hiding". People do it all the time...YOU do it all the time. and what does it do? makes you see your self at a surface level.
5. WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO TELL ME MY IDEAS ABOUT REALITY ARE FALSE???????? YOU WOULDN'T RECOGNIZE REALITY IF IT WAS LOADED INTO A GUN AND FIRED AT YOUR HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, now that I have that all out, I will state this. Most of you think you've been in "love" before. but the funny thing is, just that sentance contradicts one of the major charactoristics of "love". It doesn't ever die. it doesn't leave. It last FOREVER!!! don't you get that? you fall in love once, and never again!!! got that? good. next "symptom" of love. You EXPECT a relationship that is a result of love to last forever. got that? fantastic! thirdly, it waits. it's patient, and gentle. not forcing and bold. (hence the reason I asked...and I asked twice, over the span of an hour and a half, thank you very much...damn girls have a thing for exageration.) okay! fourth symptom of love...look people, it's not something that's designed to just step in or out of. It's not a doorway... though is often treated like one. if I was moving too fast, or saying things that made you uncomfortable, SAY SOMETHING!!! Goddamnit! It's a RELATIONSHIP...R-E-L-A-T-I-O-N-S-H-I-P!!! if Morgan said something that made you uncomfortable, what would you've done? bottle it up until it exploded, shattering the relationship, or would you talk to her about it? Why was it any different with me? I'm unpredictable, but that doesn't make me weak. okay.....It's time for me and Pat and Quin...if he ever wakes up, to go sit on the rock above the copper mantion and look over all of Spokane...and dream of what it would look like after being hit with 150 tactical nukes...
Later


PS...look, I'm sorry I'm so bitchy and irritable...and if you all hate me for this entry...I understand. But i won't hide anymore...This is how I feel...I mean, I love you all so much...you have no idea what you mean to me...but...but i have alot of anger in me right now...
byebye now...
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independenttruckergrl

01-31-04 11:48am

Do I mean something to you?

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Aerii

01-31-04 11:48am

Paul, I know this has nothing to do with me, but I just wanted to say I was sorry.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:02pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:02pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:02pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:02pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:02pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:03pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:03pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:03pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 2:03pm

-smiles-...thank you.

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Aerii

Re: Re:, 01-31-04 2:16pm

Its.. just sometimes you can be creepy. Im sorry.

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shroudofrain

01-31-04 1:54pm

you think
you think you live to die, you think i dont care.
you think i just walk away, but im still here. you think you live to love her... but thats not true, you think i dont listen, but i do.
if you think that i dont listen... then why am i so conserned? if you think i dont care... then why am i broken?
you told me i lie... that i dont care about you. you told me that i lie about taking a bulit for you but what you dont realize is that im the padding that helps you live.
i care about you so much but you dont understand.
you think i dont know what im talking about you and you may be right... i sometimes question my own sanity.
i dont dout you, but you dout me. i dont understand why you cant open your eyes to the truth that i care. i care.
im broken that you dont care about how i feel with every word that passes your blood-stained lips. you dont know how i try to hold back the tears with every cut you make.
i lay in the durt you call your live and i shift through the ashes looking for something that i dont even know what it is... and you drop me in the ashes of my hell and leave me to die. you dont mean to but you do.
i shift through the lies you tell me to see what is true. you shift through her durt to find some scrap of love for you. you dont find anything. i dont find anything... but we still look.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 1:58pm

I live only so that one day I will cease to do so. I know this.

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independenttruckergrl

01-31-04 2:13pm

huh?
I think Im confused.

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chocolatemilk

02-18-04 11:34pm

I'VE never fallen in love. Am I no one to you? Just kidding. You can be sorta creepy sometimes...and i have to agree with alex, by saying im sorry. Where the hell are you?

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Aaron

Re:, 06-17-04 1:13am

I'm right here...like I've always been...and always will be...forever. I know sometimes I'm scary. It's...something...a girl wouldn't understand...you don't know anger like we do... I'm sorry too.

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