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| goobs827 (profile) wrote, on 1-31-2004 at 6:01pm | |
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| i feel like i should have a lot to say. but i don't. i'm at a loss for words. and i wish i wasn't so selfish and would understand and appreciate that he's not in pain anymore. but i'm really going to miss him. and there's so many regrets and so much guilt i'm trying to fight off. yesterday was the worst day of my life. my heart literally felt like it was ripping in to two. my chest was bursting. i never knew what true sadness was until yesterday. and i dont think anybody can truly be sad and depressed until something like that happens. i'll update more after the wake and funeral. love |
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superspaz | 01-31-04 11:42pm gabi, i wnat you to know that its alright to be a little selfish right now, i dont blame you for wanting him to be with you, but the right way to lean is to truly understand that he is in heaven, where he is perfect, and healthy, and looking down at you, and if he is half as great as i hear you say, then he wouldnt want you to be this sad, but i want you to know how truly sorry i am for you, that you lost such a great relative, but that you had to experience the great pain that is death, but think of this awful time in a better light, if you can, a time to realize that you should live your life to the fullest, and a time to get to know your family as well as you can, they are the ones who will truly be with you forever. your friends, including myself, will be here for you, when you need help gathering yourself after this, and when you decide that you need fun to bring up your spirits, because you know we will always be here for you... |
dmlxoxo | 02-01-04 8:25pm i dont think that erica couldve said that better. i know what its like to be so numb by something that doesnt seem real to you at all. i know what its like to have ur eyes overflowing with tears and no matter what you do and no matter what anyone says, u cant stop thinking and the tears keep on flowing. ive been through this exact same experience way to many times for the amount of time ive been alive and as u said it feels like your heart has just been ripped in two, but just remember that as much as you want to be with him one last time, or tell him you love him one last time, he wants to be with you and loves you too....and we all love you. so if you ever need anyone to stand by you to help dry your tears or to get that industrial sized bandaid around ur heart, know that im there. ill always be here to help you get through this. i love u gabs ur the best.
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goobs827 | 02-01-04 10:56pm you guys are just the sweetest. that was seriously so beautiful. I got to write him a letter telling him everything i wish i had said, and i put it in the casket. i really appreciate your sympathy and kindness and i will surely go to you guys if i need because of your amazing understanding words. thanks and i love you both so much. |