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| threshershark (profile) wrote, on 1-31-2004 at 9:03pm | |
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Hmm, it looks as if my laptops broken. My dad's trying to fix it, but if it doesn't happen he'll take it back to work and put it back from whence it came. Oh well. I spend too much time on the computer anyway. This is a great song. It's called Hindsight by John Reuben. He's the only rapper I listen to. I screamed to God out of frustration after another day of waking and hating the fact that I'm still where I'm at. What's the point of all of this, cuz I'm not seeming to find it. Is it meaningless? I search the reason behind it because these moments seem to drag on forever and these years on end seem to have never been. this desperation has formed repetition within to insecure to pretend and i'm too weak to defend. Here it comes again, all in my world again left with no direction no beginning no end the days blend together and the weather never changes, numb to the outcome but yet not quite painless, aimless to whether or not I made a mistake and, if so, how far is too far before it's too late? Should I wait? But then what would be too long to reverse the effects if I was wrong? Hindsight is a beautiful thing, when you can look back and see what patience and time can bring. Is it a must that I'm here, is it a must that I stay? in order to look forward, must I look away? We're moving towards a new day, unsure of what tomorrow will bring our way I'm not even quite sure of what this day holds. I say we travel the unknown and watch it unfold, hold today close while still reaching for tomorrow. Through the test of time, I've seen joy overcome sorrow so with every trial I endure with hopes to mature into what I was created for, more than life itself, I want life itself. Press past the present until forever is felt and take hold of the hidden mystery. Wide eyed and open I now see differently. If it's to be then give me the strength to be content and find peace in knowing one day, it will all make sense. Hindsight is a beautiful thing, when you can look back and see what patience and time can bring. Learning to accept the unexpected, because the unknown wasn't here for me to correct it, so I let it go and stopped trying to control the impossible. Simply put, tossed in the shuffle at a young age just like everyone else, so I don't feel sorry for you or for myself. Love is bigger than that and I'm not below or above the way it moves, even though the things it does to my train of thought can bring about doubt and uncertainty patience tends to not agree with my psyche that's more than likely just some pride in me. fighting expectations of where I think my life should be, selfishly I forget so quickly. let me never forget, Lord, break me in humility. some sort of amazing grace on me as I look back upon my life and where you've taken me. Hindsight is a beautiful thing, when you can look back and see what patience and time can bring. Hear the call peace fall from trial to triumph I want your hand in it all allow me to know where to stand in it all, life giver. |
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Angel_Bob | 01-31-04 9:23pm Hindsight is 20/20.
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deloric | 01-31-04 11:04pm have you ever heard cross movement? theyre a pretty decente xtian rap bad, i used to have their cd .. but.. i let someone borrow it a few years ago and never got it back. |