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| lynds4090 (profile) wrote, on 1-31-2004 at 9:18pm | |
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| hey sat. night and i'm home cause i'm sick.... :( which sucks but oh well! rather have it this weekend then next! so i'm gonna vent cause i'm bored and i gotta vent. sorry to all you have to read it but umm well no on is home for me to vent to! lol so yeah swirl is coming up and i'm kinda excited... no really excited!! i got a really cute dress :) hehe we have finally figured out what we are doing and stuff we are going to tare's so it should be fun! One problem. he wants to go out... and i honstly don't! like i know i've said this bout everyone but omg i really don't want a boyfriend!!! i really don't. and not too many people understand that. excipicaly the guys. i'm sorry i really am but i don't want to!! i don't want to put you through hell because of me! so yeah things should hopefuly be good i hope so. oh i meet amber (andy's g/f) she seems cool. i'm really happy for andy. i hope it lasts along time. i'm starting to get depressed and it sucks. i could feel it coming on thur. night and yesterday it happend. it just popped out and i'm sorry. theres gonna be more where that came from. but proly w/ tears next time. so if i'm really touchy in the next few weeks. i'm sorry don't please don't take it personal. i just miss summer and i'm just bored w/ everyhting. and i'm really really sorry but omg its gonna happen. we can only pray that it won't be as bad as it was last year. god i'm stupid.... why does this happen everyyear? i'm just a retard thats all. and thats another reason i don't want a b/f. thats sooo much extra stress that i don't need! its just yeah i'm stupid. wanna know somthing great!?!? me and nate are like soo much better now. like its great absoulutly great. we talked for like an hour thur. night and omg ... prasie the lord to that. lol. so many questions answered and we just talked bout everything... like nothing happend and it was great. and i really loved it! god.... i just pray i don't fall for him agian cause thats not good. can't do that agian for like the 50th time. lol. so yeah i like this whole friends thing and i'm really really excited cause we are better and friends..... and yeah he is awesome to talk to. like i can talk to a lot of other people boutmy problems but the peopel that i have really only cried to is proly jess, shannon, henry, and him. those are like the 4 people that i actruly love talking to and the people that i feel most comfortable w/. idk... i'm really glad that i can actruly say that bout him agian. volleyball was fun today. we got 2nd lost to first. but oh well! we had fun. i played pretty well. i felt like shit in the mornng and basically the whole day but i felt so bad bout yesterday that i didn't want to show it cause i felt bad and i didn'twant people to talk like idk.... spend more time on me. yeah patty fell pretty funny. i was hoping it would knock some sence into her... but of course it didn't! oh i'm just j/k... but yeah shes still the spacy patty.. lol i loveyou! lol. oh you know who really really REALLY bugs me.... well i'm not gonna name names but yeah "she" lol. why does she think shes the shit.. shes not!! i hate to say this but she reminds me of my mom. lol. isn't that terrible? yeah like omg she has to do everything and she'll do anything to make it look like she did it. she can be such a suck up that it bugs me!!!!!!!!!! ehh!!!! honestly one of these times i'm gonna just spaz out at her.... surprised i didn't do that yesterday lol. but yeah omg i could name like 500 (i'mreally not excarating!) times shes done things that hve bugged me.... but i won't. not only would that take a lot of typing time but that might just be too mean and i'll just get worked up and ahhhhh she bugs the hell out of me!!!!!! why why does she have to be such a suck up? why does she have to think she's the best? she bugs me. its like she is competing w/ everyone. trying to act bestfriends. oooh ok i'mjsut gonna stop. can't go on this subject that much longer. i want to find somthign to do tomorrow for the big game!! lol idk i'll proly just be in the mood to just lay at home. but i don't want to caue then i'll eat and then i won't be able to fit in my cute dress!!! then i'll be screwed and very and really sad. so if your doing somthig give me a call 4854! we can hang. lol. hehe so yeah give me a halla or a jingle what ever floats your boat!! so yeah thats all i think i'm gonna say for now. not as long as i was thinking.but i wonder how many times i said really. i say that a lot hmm. i'm out <3 linds |
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lynds4090 | 01-31-04 10:12pm i said really 18+ lol. yeah i'm a loser and just read that whole thing over agian!! bye! linds |
glitterkisses | 01-31-04 10:13pm lol just wanted to say how much i love you linds! call me later *muah* bye bye-Jess |
tare | 02-01-04 11:28am i'm sorry that you're going through such a shitty time lindsey. we all have our moments and its only your time to go through the winter slump. *shrug* it happens to the best of us, and no matter what i will still love you. :) i can't wait for swirl, we are gonna have a blast... i've gotta make sure i get a bunch of diff noodles hee hee. love ya girl. hope you feel better! (i'm sick too :(, it sucks ) |