02-02-04 5:45pm

hey tony. errca is my bestest friend... so you should have expected me to say sumthing before you even wrote this.

1) does it blow when i am around, cuz i know that she cares about me more than you. sooo, who cares if she likes him. its not something that you need to weep about 24/7. she likes somebody obviously a lot more than you... get over it.

2) ITS NOT A STUPID CRUSH!! i know that you 'crush' over errca all the time... but i dont say 'what a loser!!! GOD, its a STUPID CRUSH!!'

3) didnt you say that you wouldnt hurt her last time??? hmmm... makes ya wonder huh?

4)GOD!!!!!!!!! you just totally piss me off when you pull this TONY!!! shes knows what she is doing... she knows what she is getting into. her and i have already talked about all this stuff. but its her decision!!! you are NOT her dad... you cant pressure her to do things. and i can remember MANY occasions where you have made her cry. i hardly believe that anything that happens between dusty and erica will turn out anywhere near how bad things turned out with you and her. just pleaz quit pulling this tony...

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Re:, 02-02-04 10:05pm

i agree with you andrea *high fuckin five*

sorry to say it tony but i do. i understand that you 'love' and care for erica with all of your heart but if you really do you will respect her and let her do her own thing. let her be happy with dusty for awhile...let her enjoy life...if you really 'love' her you will apprectiate her choices and support her 100%. and if you dont. all the shit you just polled about 'loving' her and wanting to be with her forever and knowing you can make her happy her whole life shit is a fucking lie. cause if you can understand her and axcept who she is and what she wants to do and who she wants to be with...all your doing is making everything even more worse for you and her. and im sure thats the last thing that you want to happen to the both of you. and tony when you say shit like this after your guys's last relationship...its just no fair. cause you have nothing and i mean nothing to back up what your saying now. im sorry bud but you pretty much blew it last time. now if you want her back you need to be fucking patient and respectful! dont go writing all this shit about how you are soo much better for her than dusty and that its all a stupid crush and shit. cause tony...how do you know that this isnt the real thing and you were just the stupid crush or that you both are stupid crushes to her some way? yeah...thats right....YOU DONT KNOW! so you need to stop this nonsense bull shit and give her some fucking time. i mean after last time im sure that wouldnt be to much to give her.

face it bud...it isnt going to be anytime soon that you get her back. you need to show that you deserve her more than anyone...better yet...that she deserves you but to do that you have to leave her alone and stop buggin her about it cause we all know tony...you'll just make it worse and have to wait longer.


i love you bud! and good luck! maybe we'll both get lucky and get what we want. *sigh* that would be nice huh? lol.


oh and andrea....GRRRRRRRRRRRRREAT ADVICE CHICK!!! YOU ROCK I LOVE YA!!! LOL! YOUR SOO FUCKING FUNNY! haha wicked awesome...


love you all...later!

chelsea...*kisses*

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Re: Re:, 02-03-04 7:51am

If you didn't hurt Erica as much as they claim you did, why isn't she with you? If she felt that there was still something there, why isn't she with you?

Something to think about.

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02-03-04 5:24pm

ROCK ON!!! we all totally kick ass!!!

your welcome chels!!! i love you too :D!!!!

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02-03-04 8:48pm

hey all.
i just wanna say....
that tony knows that all i need is time and patience and that this whole thing with dusty will more than likely blow off eventually. but like chelsea said...we never know. i dont know exactly where any of this is gonna end up. but tony, you know why we arent together now, and you know that i need to get over our last relationship. and Andrea and Chelsea know how i feel about you. they know i obviously care about you alot to still be sticking around and they know that you obviously care about me alot for you too be sticking around also. i just wanted to let you know that your all right. every single one of us has the right to say what we said. i jsut kinda want all this maddness to stop. i mean, what about when we all went to the mall? i loved that! i just want things to go back to the way they were. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!
Chelsea...see you at the dance.....you as well tony....Andrea i miss you!

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02-03-04 9:43pm

well sence this is my journal and its my thoughts i can say whatever i want right
i just wnat to let andrea and chelse to know that i never said i was better than dusty im just sure that she will get hurt erica has already told me that and erica even told me it was probly just a crush and it will blow over in time..mabye she told you two differentily but i can only go bye her word, and i dont really think either of you understude the point behind my journal entry
the shere point down to the bone was this
erica is my best friend and i love her very much and i am very afraid that her feelings and heart might get hurt and thats not cool when it comes to me ok i just feel like its gona end up really bad and im afraid
and yea me adn erica were a good couple and if you too still want to play off of all my mistakes.. thats good for you but me and erica have talked about that as well and i would like it if you could do what me and erica are doing and but them in the past ok i just not want anything bad to happen ok and i know you probly dont belive me or just think i want erica to get hurt by dusty and all that but to the you the god honest truth i dont and i just wish all this stuff would end ok......and if you could reframe from swearing at me it would be appreacieated thanks..

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02-05-04 5:41pm

Tony,
and since your hournal is free to the public, i can also say whatever i want to say. right? right.

There is always possibility that erica will get hurt, no matter what guy she is with. so there really was no 'real' reason to say that.

she also tells me that she thinks its just a crush. but the thing is that its not. Erica, i love you to pieces!!! and you know, whether or not you wanna face it, that you ARE in love. you know that these feelings that you have are ones that only dusty has given you. there is no way in hell that a crush could bring about such flames and depth!

i understand that you are afraid for her tony... we all are. everyone that truly loves her, including me and chel, are terribly frightened that something bad may happen. but its not our fate... so we best not mess with it.

and we dont purposly bring these things up to rub them in your face. its just that you seem to say some things like you are God or sumthing. like you have never done anything wrong. and we are just comparing you with what you think is worse.

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02-11-04 10:11am

tony! im in school!! woohu! im on woohu and in school at the same time!!!

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