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| holiday (profile) wrote, on 2-11-2004 at 1:43pm | |
| You know how you get that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you think you know someone is talking to/about you. I have that right now, but I'm still not sure. If that is the case. I wish you wouldn't hate me. I don't hate you at all. I'm sorry I wasn't direct with the way I was feeling, but it took talking to Ryan later that night to actually know. Sometimes I still don't know though. He said he was worried about me. I was depressed. I was sad because I missed you. I was sad because I could never tell my parents or anyone anything. There were other reasons. He asked me how could I trust you. I said I just knew I could. And it's true. And it was an awkward period of my life, you have to understand. I don't think I'd be upset right now if it was just some relationship. It was special. I obviously still have feelings. It wasn't your fault...of course not. It wasn't mine either though. I don't think anyone wants to hear about the past, so I won't go into detail about what was wrong with me. Just really depressed. And everyone could tell but me. Anyways, Ryan talked to me that night. I'm being honest. I really was honest with you. I just didn't know what was wrong. So how could I explain it if I didn't know for sure? I always told you what I knew. It did end abruptly. I never thought that was right. And I'm going to feel really dumb if you weren't even talking about what I am talking about. I wish you wouldn't hate me. If you did love me, you would have cared. I'm sorry. |
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dragon-bearer | 02-12-04 7:59pm i'm sorry too...i don't know what u r talking about at all, but i'm sorry... |
holiday | Re:, 02-15-04 6:37pm thank you. it means a lot |