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butterflykisses37 (profile) wrote,
on 2-26-2004 at 7:45pm
Music: wouldn't you like to know?
Subject: Do you remember when your tears were like cinders, burning with sorrow and rage?
I'm so in love.

but there are more important things going on in the world. I'm not saying that mine and Alex's relationship isn't important, it's one of the most important things in my life. but not in anyone else's (besides him.) any little fights we get into (what we argued about last night wasn't exactly little, but I'm not going to go into that..) don't really matter. there are so many more important things. this fight that he and Erin are in right now, totally a waste of energy. Alex, you shouldn't have said anything to Erin about her choice of music, and Erin, you shouldn't have immediately blown up on him. I mean, Alex, you should have just left her alone about it, but Erin, you should have just ignored him. I know you tend to take his joking around seriously, but come on, he didn't mean anything by it. there was no reason to get that upset. it's Cooper. so there. I've given my 2 cents and I'm stepping away because it isn't my fight..and thank god for that because it's one of the stupidest ones I've ever heard about. I'm sick of people thinking their lives are so horrible when they have so much. I mean, if there's really that big of a problem, then go see a psychiatrist and be put on some medicine or something, you could be depressed, who knows? but I think most of it is just whiny teenage bull. I woke up this morning, but it took a while for my mom to get up. and when she did, she was stumbling and shaking; result of too much drinking and drugging from the night before. so I had my dad drive me and Jennah to school. I felt bad for waking him up on his day off, but the last time I let my mom drive like that..hah, it was funny, but scary, and I hate to put my friends through that. so there, I just told you a story. about my mom being a drug addict. did I complain once in there? oh, maybe when I said I felt bad about my dad having to drive, but that doesn't count. so, the point I'm trying to make here is, I, and many many many others whose home and family lives are way worse, who actually have something to complain about, don't. because we know there are things that are worse. we know that our situation could be ten times worse. but here you have all these annoying teenagers who are all sad and what not because Mom wouldn't buy them that one shirt. or, Dad wouldn't let them go to the movies. BIG FUCKING DEAL. yea, I get pissed off about those things too, but theyre small. they are so small and petty. now, another thing, is the whole freaking gay marriage thing. who cares if a man wants to marry another man?!? we have American soldiers dying in Iraq, and President Bush is over here, trying to make a fucking amendment limiting our freedom. WHY THE HELL ARE WE OVER THERE FIGHTING FOR IT WHILE OUR PRESIDENT IS HERE LIMITING IT?!?! I'm wondering if there are any gays or lesbians over there who are contemplating this too..if I were gay, and I was fighting for our country over in Iraq, and I just learned what President Bush is trying to do, I'd come home right now. ehh. I'm having an I hate everyone time right now. especially girls. teenage girls. and pre-teenage girls for that matter. and even girls who are just turning 20 or 21! roar! roar to all of you! ah. god. I hate being a teenager. you can't do anything about anything. even if I were to protest against something, it wouldn't mean anything because I'm underage. so fuck you all. fuck fuck fuck you alllll.

whiny, self-absorbed, teenage assholes.


and I'm such a fucking hypocrite that I hate myself as much as you. fuck.
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fighting with erin is pathetic, 02-27-04 4:47pm

when i get it fights with erin, its so funny. cuz she doesnt know what to say, so she repeats herself or askes her mom what she should. and she results back to things, and askes stupid questions to past time like "what ever happen to us?" and "why dont you like me anymore?"

erin, i do like you. you shouldn't get so pissed of about stupid crap like comments i make about liking different music. and im not just trying to start a fight with you (like i wasnt trying to start a fight with your stupid jeans) because honestly, fighting with you is a waste of time.

ps-ask anyone and they will say that its odd to like atreyu and country, THEY DONT MIX. one is country, atreyu is like death metal almost... that really doesnt go together

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alex, 02-27-04 5:39pm

shannon, i didn't blow up on alex. i told him to grow up and he kept going on about it because he new it was bothering me. and alex i did have alot to say. but when i said it you said that you didn't want to read it. i was annoyed with you about the music but then you started to bring in other things to fight about that actually hurt me. thats why i made this such a big deal. just wendesday night you told me you were sorry for the fight we were in about my jeans. and then the next night you start another fight about music. i dont expect you guys to understand this because you guys bearly understand how to treat your friends. but after talking to mrs. russle for an hour yesterday everything makes sense now. i told our whole story from the middle of 7th grade to alex starting this fight over country and atreyu. and she agrees that i'm right. that i should have made a big deal out of it. you just don't talk to your friends that way alex. and i'm not talking about the country and atreyu thing. i'm talking about all the other hurtful things you said to me. like how i'm so self-centered and i dont have my priorities straight and the many many other things you said. you just don't do that. so, what were you trying to do? did you want to hurt me? well you got your way alex. you pushed far enought this time. i cried at school. and cried myself to sleep that night because i was so upset with myself for letting you get to me like that. you always seem to take things a step to far. i don't get mad about the comments you make i get mad about the way you continue making those comments when you see that i'm starting to get annoyed, and then start to be just mean to me because i tell you to grow up, or i call you immature. but you are immature. and i can be self-centered. but what tennager isn't? i put up with you being immature every day. maybe once you get your ass kicked in high school by someone who doesn't think your so damn funny you'll get the picture.

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alex, 02-27-04 5:40pm

shannon, i didn't blow up on alex. i told him to grow up and he kept going on about it because he new it was bothering me. and alex i did have alot to say. but when i said it you said that you didn't want to read it. i was annoyed with you about the music but then you started to bring in other things to fight about that actually hurt me. thats why i made this such a big deal. just wendesday night you told me you were sorry for the fight we were in about my jeans. and then the next night you start another fight about music. i dont expect you guys to understand this because you guys bearly understand how to treat your friends. but after talking to mrs. russle for an hour yesterday everything makes sense now. i told our whole story from the middle of 7th grade to alex starting this fight over country and atreyu. and she agrees that i'm right. that i should have made a big deal out of it. you just don't talk to your friends that way alex. and i'm not talking about the country and atreyu thing. i'm talking about all the other hurtful things you said to me. like how i'm so self-centered and i dont have my priorities straight and the many many other things you said. you just don't do that. so, what were you trying to do? did you want to hurt me? well you got your way alex. you pushed far enought this time. i cried at school. and cried myself to sleep that night because i was so upset with myself for letting you get to me like that. you always seem to take things a step to far. i don't get mad about the comments you make i get mad about the way you continue making those comments when you see that i'm starting to get annoyed, and then start to be just mean to me because i tell you to grow up, or i call you immature. but you are immature. and i can be self-centered. but what tennager isn't? i put up with you being immature every day. maybe once you get your ass kicked in high school by someone who doesn't think your so damn funny you'll get the picture.

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alex, 02-27-04 5:40pm

shannon, i didn't blow up on alex. i told him to grow up and he kept going on about it because he new it was bothering me. and alex i did have alot to say. but when i said it you said that you didn't want to read it. i was annoyed with you about the music but then you started to bring in other things to fight about that actually hurt me. thats why i made this such a big deal. just wendesday night you told me you were sorry for the fight we were in about my jeans. and then the next night you start another fight about music. i dont expect you guys to understand this because you guys bearly understand how to treat your friends. but after talking to mrs. russle for an hour yesterday everything makes sense now. i told our whole story from the middle of 7th grade to alex starting this fight over country and atreyu. and she agrees that i'm right. that i should have made a big deal out of it. you just don't talk to your friends that way alex. and i'm not talking about the country and atreyu thing. i'm talking about all the other hurtful things you said to me. like how i'm so self-centered and i dont have my priorities straight and the many many other things you said. you just don't do that. so, what were you trying to do? did you want to hurt me? well you got your way alex. you pushed far enought this time. i cried at school. and cried myself to sleep that night because i was so upset with myself for letting you get to me like that. you always seem to take things a step to far. i don't get mad about the comments you make i get mad about the way you continue making those comments when you see that i'm starting to get annoyed, and then start to be just mean to me because i tell you to grow up, or i call you immature. but you are immature. and i can be self-centered. but what tennager isn't? i put up with you being immature every day. maybe once you get your ass kicked in high school by someone who doesn't think your so damn funny you'll get the picture.

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