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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 3-1-2004 at 3:07pm | |
| Its spring, almost. i cant wait another 20 days for my saving garce to arise... well im writing a book, about everything. based on myself. to express how i feel about things, and to shed light upon my lies. to show everyone the real me the real truth. the light eyes behind black veils. and eveyrhting that words cant verbally express. spring. spring. spring. spring. spring. i fucking love that word!!!!!! no more cold no more dark no more short days.. no more sitting inside i can be out i can have fun i can be happy. i dont want to jinx myself here. but i think that with the spring comign so is my happiness.. i shall try to invest myself totally in writing and try to finish my book beofre summer... keyword TRY! lol wellllllll i think imma go write some. :-) ask if you wanna read some of it. Haiz n Daiz: if only you saw the tears i cry at night -------------------------------------------------- Auto response from Vanished 1 2 2 0: sleeping.. like a baby heheO:-) 6513618 call all your boys... call all your girls..call all your friends...lets do it again Beauty is you, pain is you, and love is you I am here, vulnerable and wanting Intoxicate me ---------------------------------------------------- Haiz n Daiz: i used to think that no one could like me, then when i believe that i might be worng they change their minds. my life is just a maze full of objectives that somtimes need to be avoided, and some of them need to be trampled. me liking you was something that i wanted to trample and avoid. but i didnt, andthat only go tme lost again in my maze. Haiz n Daiz: your writing is so beautiful, and theyd be fouls to say otherwise. Haiz n Daiz: you have it in you to be great, to be anything, become whatever you want to be Haiz n Daiz: you are strong, you have it all Haiz n Daiz: with each razor that goes dull because i use it too much, i'll pray that maybe i could become strong like the one i saw leave, i made leave... Haiz n Daiz: you.. were me. Haiz n Daiz signed off at 11:54:04 PM. sean i have never seen anything great in myself. i have always strived to be something erlse, my whole life. constantly trying to know someone elses face someone elses body, someone elses life. because i have always thought that in order to be accepted i must be perfect. in order to be liked... i must change.. in order to be happy i must be loved by eveyrone and have everything i want... and even still i strive to be what i am not.. what i lack...and i will not be happy until i fulfill that. |
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imperfectkay | Hey sweetie, 03-06-04 2:36pm *Manda!*
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asshoul3 | goodbye, 03-06-04 4:57pm goodbye is a word diffined as a sign of leaving, or taking away the presence of. i am saying goodbye to what i have dreamed to arise. i saw something in you, something that most ppl probably see. i saw it and i wanted to hold onto it. it was difference, strength... it was something that i thought i could get from you. you told me to trust you because you wernt like the rest so i did. i trusted you so much, more than visco (one of my best friends). you made me believe that you were different, you were something that i could trust in my life, you told me you wanted to be in my life... be with me. so i let you in, you took a look around.. and left. almost like going into a fishbowled room, taking in the smoke and leaving as soon as you get a taste. i thought youd stay.. but how could i have been so stupid, but i am as youve said.. stupid. i dont know what to tell you. you want to be in my life still, something, anything. a friend, a foe. you did what every girl before you did, hurt. and then i learn you did it because if you gave it a chance you might loose your skill to write. well now that im out of the picture, write. go enjoy what you love. i dont blame you, im not that mad at you. just do what you want but try and leave me outta it. pain just seems to find a place with me, so ill find a speacial place to hide... maybe my goodbye to you is something to write about in your book. maybe you can post more IM from me up. and maybe youll learn that you can write beautiful work when your happy, look at what i wrote when i was with you.. You have an angels voice, a philosiphers pen, and one of the most beautiful faces i have ever seen.. goodbye to you Amanda Maltz. |