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| FreakishIYK (profile) wrote, on 3-3-2004 at 11:50pm | |
| Current mood: weird Subject: What do I do? |
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| Hey all, sorry I haven't updated very much. But there's just not a lot going on...welcome to my life. So I'll just update the last few days for you. Sunday night my Aunt finally cut and highlighted my hair. I've been wanting her to do so for like 3 years now. I think it looks nice, and everyone else seems to like it a lot. I stayed home again Monday, Friday and Tuesday. Really didn't feel like going. I guess I'm starting to get back into my old habits. Atleast I don't skip my classes, just the end of 5th hour to see AJ in his lunch sometimes...nothing big. Today though....I don't know, I feel weird, kind of awkward. I came online and wanted to IM Billy (I was going to ask him for some computer help) but he had an away message up, so I checked it to see what it said. It said something like..."Watching OC with my girlfriend...like I'd watch that one my own." New girlfriend!? He never told me anything about this, when did this happen? How do I feel about this? Am I jealous? all these questions are running through my mind, and it's just giving me a head ache. I don't wanna think about it. It's best he has a new girlfriend....isn't it? I only held him back. Today in school AJ was a little late meeting me (I figured he skipped, even though he said he wouldn't) so I went inside to check out something and I saw him come through a different entrance, but he didn't see me. And any sane person would just walk up to him and wouldn't think anything of it....but notice I said sane, which is far from me. You know what I thought first? Maybe he's trying to avoid me. Aw man, what if he wants to break up? well, would have happened sooner or later....Dear God what is wrong with me? I can't help but think so low of myself sometimes. I dunno...I wound up turning around to go check out something else and ran into him anyway. He seemed happy to see me, so those thought left my mind. Hopefully I can see him this weekend, I really wanna go out with him again. We'll see I guess. Anyway guys, it's almost 12 and I am dead tired. Until then...bye byes. PS going back and reading all I typed...makes no sense to me now, oh well I'm too tired to type more, I think that's enough to last you guys awhile. night all. |
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malicsadat | 03-06-04 8:17pm first off, you were never holding billy back. don''t think that you ever did. ok? secondly, you'ne got to think higher of yourself. goodness knows i do.msndy csndy, you're grest. do you remember that name? it's been a wile. i realy hope to see you this friday, but i dout it. well talk to you later. adu` |