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 | mbenznut (profile) wrote, on 3-6-2004 at 2:00am |
Current mood: Drunk Music: Ace Of Base: All That She Wants
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So the thing at DeNooyer finally posted, I guess I was just being too hopeful.
Today I had to work, and guess what, not a single person was scheduled in Cabinets & Appliances; Matt went down there to cover, so I got to run our department by myself. I about tripled my sales goal if not more, which was $4000. So I was fucking busy. Came home and decided to take a nap. I decided to start dishes, but Katie called soon after. So we go to Dairy Mart to buy beer, I get told to leave, so I accidentally stole the pack of Mamba I was hanging onto, and left the beer on the counter for her. First time I remember shoplifting. Then we’re off to Harding’s where I buy the beer and go to Kelli’s. After a while, we end up going to Alex’s. He’s an ass, but was on very good behavior tonight. I actually had a good time there. Come home, Paul calls. I end up going to Marty’s new place. This is where I begin being confused. Jordan is hitting on me like none other, weird in itself. There’s random comments between the I love you statement, such as: you’re so laid back, so un-dramatic, so easy to get along with, such a great guy and so on. The weird thing is I hear similar comments from other people. This doesn’t seem to be like me at all. It’s weird getting these compliments, because I don’t feel I deserve any of them.
And why does it bother me more to receive a compliment, than it does to hear someone tell me they love me?
Marty: Guy in his late 30’s early 40’s, somewhere in there; appears to be my father’s age. So he’s having this housewarming party. Sure older people have younger friends, but why did it seem like Paul was the oldest there? And Paul is only a few years older than I am. Almost no one seemed to be of legal age to be drinking. Just disturbed me slightly.
Night.
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 TaoMan1121 | 03-06-04 5:56pm You are a good listener AND I love you. Deal with that, ya compliment-issue-having biatch. :-)
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Anonymous | 03-08-04 9:32am You didn't drink before you turned twenty-one?
As for his having younger friends, (a) He's employed or will employ several of them, (b) He is much younger at heart than you'd think at his age -- he's the only well-off 45yo Democratic zealot that I'm aware of, (c) there were some older people invited, but the party was kind of impromptu, and younger people are more inclined to change plans easily or be devoid of plans other than partying on the last Friday night of Spring Break, and (d) it's possible that Marty just doesn't like the bitterness associated with tired old queens.
Then again, I know quite a few younger fags who are substantially bitter.
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 mbenznut | Re:, 03-08-04 3:37pm Once again, a supposedly smart person could not be more idiotic.
Yes, I did drink before I was 21. Yet, I paid for my alcohol. It was bought by friends who understood the hassle of being near 21, but not being there yet. It is an understood rule that those who turn 21 buy for those just under, and that when those under age will return the favor to their younger friends later. The age difference is minimal. An old man buying alcohol for a boy half his age for free seems creepy. Marty is buying friendship of people. How is it any better if he employs only young people? Is it any less creepy if you have a bunch of boy toys working for you, and you have them over for parties? It sounds even worse to me. Sure younger people have a slightly easier time adjusting their schedule, but not even one older person showed up. You do not like stereotypes being applied to you for being gay. Yet, you are applying a common stereotype that all old gay men are bitter queens.
Nothing wrong with being young at heart. But in order to mature, you have to accept the changes in life. No matter what, you will never be who you were years ago. You are meant to grow, live, and learn from life, not to try to escape it. What difference does it make that he is a democrat or wealthy? I never insulted his political views. In fact, they were not even mentioned before.
Perhaps the most disturbing part is that when I see him, I think of you in 20 years. Except I doubt you will achieve a similar financial success, but the social failure will probably be similar.
Yes, I am bitter, but only to bastards like you. Our friendship is over. Deal with it.
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Anonymous | Re: Re:, 03-10-04 12:52am "An old man buying alcohol for a boy half his age for free seems creepy. Marty is buying friendship of people. "
Wow dude. An attitude like that at YOUR age ? You need therapy. I truly feel sorry for your inability to understand the random crowd that was at the party. It was hastily arranged and most of the invites were made by other people. Sorry that I "creep you out". Maybe all of us older folks should just stay at the rest home until we die. God forbid we might have diverse groups of friends. That would be unconcienable.
marty
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 mbenznut | Re: Re: Re:, 03-10-04 11:55am I do not expect some people to understand my journal. After all, it is my journal and I put my feelings into it. They are feelings of the moment, over time they are thought out and reconsidered. This was my initial feeling of the party. My entire point was that the crowd was not random. I see crowds that are more diverse at most keggers. No, older people need not lock themselves away, but with age I expect people to mature.
This was my initial opinion of you, I expected to leave it at that until I spent more time around you and came to an actual conclusion. I realize now how similar you are to Josh at taking everything at face value, even people’s perceived emotions. I cannot believe that at 21 I am more mature than a 45-year-old man is. Get a life.
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