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| confused+abused (profile) wrote, on 3-6-2004 at 3:07pm | |
| Today I realized I don't need anyone but myself... I'll never find anyone but myself... I feel so empty... real empty like nothing and no one matters anymore, my brothers got on my case today BAD... about Jason who's 22 and he works at McDonalds and I was talking to him... they act like i was making out with him in the middle of McDonalds or something. I hate it... they make me feel like im honestly doing something wrong. My dad today said that he knew that I smoked... yeah I smoke all the time.. actually when other people smoke around me I get pounding migrains, so why in the hell would I smoke?... they think i'm a slutty drug attic or something... i'm not sorry to disapoint some of you but i'm just not. Apryl and I aren't really talking right now I guess I was being kind of mean last night but I have been waiting for a while just to say something along those lines to her... and I wish I could have told her everything thats on my mind. I know you all don't really care to hear complaining but im in the mood to complain so if you finish reading this it's only your fault... Shilo just called with some good news but it's a secret so I guess that puts me in a better mood. The other day i was thinking i'd talk to god... the one person who doesn't complain about me complaining... but you really don't feel like your accomplishing anything especially when no one talks back to you. Right now if I didn't have Shilo I swear I would have broken down he is the one person who I can say anything to and know that he's not going to say a word to anyone. Right now it's like 3 o'clock in the after noon I am sitting here in a hoodie and pj pants... no makeup and my hair in pony tail... hot huh?... | |
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_iggy_ | 03-06-04 4:15pm I am glad that you have someone to turn to. I am also glad that you dont (and this applies for everyone) need anyone but yourself. that way you dont get let down. I hope that things get better. I will pray for you.
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| Anonymous | 03-06-04 11:14pm I really, really, think that you should give talking to God a chance. You're right, He does listen and He doesn't care that you are complaining. He is there to help you. And yeah, maybe you won't HEAR Him talking back, but you will FEEL it. Trust me. If you don't feel it right away, give it another day or two. Try talking to him more often. Just give it time and you will deffinetely feel it. There is nothing better. Just give it a try. You won't ever regret it. |
| _iggy_ | 03-08-04 8:43pm its the funniest thing... when i was praying i asked that God would give you (jessica) and open heart to be able to feel God's presence so that you knew that he is always gonna be there for you. and that you would keep praying and talking to God. He's so amazing and does wonderful things if you believe.
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