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| christini (profile) wrote, on 3-6-2004 at 8:00pm | |
| Current mood: depressed Music: evanescence Subject: save me from the nothing i've become. |
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| i feel so, worthless. today my mom made me take a practice SAT test, and i just, felt so stupid. i usually do really well on math, especially on those kinds of tests, and i just sat there, for an hour or so, staring at a math section. i felt so stupid. thinking i wouldnt pass it with a good score, and i wouldnt get into a good college. and it scares me to death. because everyday colleges are raising their expectations for incoming students. and everyday we all get lazier. especially me. my grades arent anything special, there are tons of kids out there with grades higher than mine and 4.0 gpa's. and theres nothing special about me, i dont excell in anything, im just not good at anything. even if i do join clubs and whatnot, if i dont have a significant part in it, they wont even care. and the grades and the SAT's on top of it, chances seem like they get slimmer by the day. and i work my ass off to even get some of the grades i do get. so what makes me think im even good enough for college? im just another average kid. that doesnt even fit into her clothes anymore. its really depressing. in the course of less than a month i dont fit into about 5 pairs of pants anymore. it scares me how lazy this generation has become. we dont want to work in school, we dont want to participate outside of it, we dont want to exercise. all we want to do is eat pizza and ice cream and taco bell. we're all going to end up being obese lazy asses who dont get into college. at least i am. i wish i saw something special in me. maybe its just the mood swings that have accompanied mother nature's visit to me this lovely month of march, but i feel like, i just dont belong in this world. i belong in my own little bubble with my sappy movies and fat free ice cream. | |
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lizzy | yes. liz is a dork and made u another thing-a-ling!, 03-06-04 9:04pm |
Lizzy | yes. liz is a dork and made u another thing-a-ling!, 03-06-04 9:06pm |
lizzy | 03-06-04 9:06pm oops. sorry for double post. <3 |
Jacks | 03-06-04 9:30pm Liz is right and everyone has something special and worth living for!! I think of it this way i really can't be depressed b/c the lives we live are so much better then the ones in any other country and all we have to do is take what we have and go with it!! You'll get into college and have a great life and thats worth waiting for!! Hope this helps in some way!!
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Jacks | 03-06-04 9:31pm Liz is right and everyone has something special and worth living for!! I think of it this way i really can't be depressed b/c the lives we live are so much better then the ones in any other country and all we have to do is take what we have and go with it!! You'll get into college and have a great life and thats worth waiting for!! Hope this helps in some way!!
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colombiana | 03-07-04 10:59am christini. i've told you time and time again how much of a special person you are. your grades are awesome. look at me, afraid of getting kicked out of IB because of my grades. you don't have to worry about that. christine, think of all the kids under you. all the kids in IB ranked under you, it's hundreds! then add a ton more of the regular kids. then the special ed kids. and the esol kids. christine, you are one of the brightest girls i know. and i want you to know that you aren't nothing, like i told you yesterday, you are my everything. you are my shining star. you know you will get into the college of your choice. you will get an awesome grade on your SAT. and if you don't, who cares? you can always retake the SAT again, so many times you will have it memorized. and you can come to UF with the rest of us. it's ok to not be number one as long as you try. i love you and you are my inspiration. <3 |