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| musicalbabe (profile) wrote, on 3-9-2004 at 5:16pm | |
| Current mood: simple Music: Aldersgate Street (from the church musical) Subject: Simplicity and Revelations |
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| My thoughts are all over the place today, and strangely simplistic. It seems as if I'm always reluctant to do anything without a complex, deeper meaning to it. It might be a combination of the weather and The Bean Trees, or just something I've concluded to on my own, but I no longer fear the "limitations" of a simple life. (And look at me, I'm still not writing especially simply. Oh well.) I just finished reading chapters 8 and 9 of TBT. There are many serious issues being dealt with, but not in especially great detail or complex wording. Initially, I felt like I was being cheated somehow, that the author had so much to convey, and could elaborate further to what she alluded to. I realize that maybe she made the right decision in touching on important issues with recurring themes instead of piling facts and morality lessons into the story. This is where the reader is allowed to think about it in as great detail as they wish. In this way, TBT can be focused to a larger audience. I'll bet that at least 30% of the people in Survey Comp/Lit have already missed the majority of clues Kingsolver has included in her novel that force the more serious reader to consider the world. Normally, this would infuriate me. How could they miss the incredible knowledge that could be absorbed and digested by this text? Then, in classroom discussions, I would appear bratty and superior, becoming frustrated with the lack of understanding of my peers. (Yes, this has happened many a time. Look out for Melissa during socratic semenars and debates, especially if you've been slacking.) Well that's how it was. But now, I realize that what little they have comprehended is enough. For all I know, they can relate to these issues far better than I ever will be able to. From my little studious, comfortable, rich white girl perspective of it all, I can philosophise about the hardships and pain of others, but can barely skim the surface of the emotional trauma experienced. This realization has given me a lot of respect for a larger group of people. grrr. must ride horses. back later. what infuriates me the most is that i will no longer be able to continue this specific train of thought. in the words of winnie the pooh: oh bother. more later. Well, as usual, I have no intention of completing that train of thought. I'm really tired now. I can't ride my psycho thoroughbred after her day off, without bullpenning her!!, for over an hour. It is so physically draining, and just as draining mentally. Again, I got into one of those completely-focused states. I both love myself and bitterly hate myself (okay, that was a little melodramatic, i NEVER Hate myself) when I'm in one of those zones. I feel like I can do anything, and then, once my body gives out and I allow my mind to be pressured and worried, I've lost it. And that is one of the most disappointing things one can experience. I don't want to do 31 pages of Bean Tree notes. It's really a shame that 1) I've been brought up to believe that anything less than an A and a near-perfect academic and extracurricular life isn't good enough and 2) In order to get into a good college, you must ________, you must also excell in ________, and take this or that class, etc. etc. Who knows about the whole Sadies thing? It really is harder than I give guys credit for. Actually, it's really not. I'm just making more of it than I should. We'll see what happens... |
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iwish2bemilkywhite | 03-10-04 1:10am teehee. i had fun doing the asking to sadies. not that it wasn't hard to do. but it was fun. hee. i can help you think up cool ways of asking someone if you want! |
musicalbabe | Re:, 03-10-04 1:20am cool! thanks. we shall have fun devising a plan. i'm a little worried about the probability of it actually working out, though. (so many things to consider...) but hey, the concept is simple. *starts singing 'tis a gift to be simple' then shuts herself up before she turns into a REALLY annoying person.) i ask the person i actually want to go with, and really have feelings for first. and that is what i shall do. ;0) it's april 2, so we don't have oodles of time, but we'll talk. *grin* |
| mbellababe | Re: Re:, 03-10-04 2:01am go stag and then have the *person* come to the dance and be like WOW your here, well since im stag we shoud dance HUH? hehehe. or you oculd just ask him*the special him of course* whichever works, im going stag becasue i think dances with boys are overated. yes meredith is a lozer and thinks freshman boys are overated, BUT THEY ARE! BELIEVE ME THEY ARE! but that doesnt mean that other pple in other upper classes are AHEM mellisa and other person AHEM
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musicalbabe | Re: Re: Re:, 03-10-04 7:09pm uhm...k. and nice spelling of my name. but uh...chances are i won't go stag. nice...erm...idea. you have fun with that! all the power to ya.
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