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| DarkSwordDancer (profile) wrote, on 3-9-2004 at 9:57pm | |
| Current mood: depressed Music: Garbage Deadwood Subject: heh... |
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| I wish my parents would listen to me but then they would have to care to do that woudnt they.........and of course that would be asking too much from my parents...everytime i talk to them we fight...then ill be sitting in the living room and can hear them talking about me in the kitchen,nevere do they talk of acheievments nope...its all about my appearence...everything is about appearence.......yes im fat and ugly so i dont deserve to have friends basically or a social life according to my parents....yeah 4 and 5 th grade was about my grades and how those were the only things that matterd in life...no now its all appearence and it dosent matter if im happy or not as long as i look good so im allowed to fail classes as long as im skinny while i do it .So my mom tells me i eat all the candy they give me to take to parties and that i have no control...then gets home today and is wondering why im hurt by her thoughts....ok this is also added to the whiny brat/bitch comment from the other day then this......maybe maggie is right and i am a fat bitch...you know when you hear it from your mother it sounds true.....then my dad just sits there and says i dont care that i hurt them with my fatness....and during all this everytime i try to get a word out they tell me to shutup.......yeah........so much crying today was done....then art was made....a girl standing at the bottom of prom staircases in a purple and yellow dress...a hug window behind her and its night out...all in water color.......a mermaid slapped up against some glass from a tank...all in water color.......um...a girl naked back turned on a cliff over an ocean with scars on her back and her arms are crossed so you can see her fingertips on her back....and blood is running down her elbows from her wrists that are cut but you cant see them ...and under the pic says "Let me fall into the ocean so i can once again be part of the earth"...and the last one is a self portrait in pencil that says " why do you only see what you wish to see?"...yes that was my art for the day........ Dara cant go with my to minnesota........yes family....we go to oregon to a family reunion over spring vacation....oh and we are going down to cali to go see some reletives down there to.......yes traveling....my b-day party is almost official...prom..i got my hair appointment...um need my shoes.......and someone besides gwen to drag with...cause roxy is going with raab..i think so i will drag gwen and someone else......lets see...ashley is leaving in like a month and a half...which is depressing..........eh..... My parents are beyond trying to befriend..i would rather bow down to maggie as ruler of my life than trying and work anymore stuff out with my parents cause it takes 2 to tango.... Yo no soy nada pero una sombra. |
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silversoldier | the spanish made me think of this:, 03-10-04 12:27am “Out, out, brief candle!
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DarkSwordDancer | Re: the spanish made me think of this:, 03-11-04 6:12pm I like it...hmm...shakespeare has become more and more though of latley |