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| thedarkerside (profile) wrote, on 12-31-2002 at 11:25pm | |
| Current mood: drunk Music: Tv in background Subject: Happy N.Y. |
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| acomplishments of the day: -Mending the wounds of a good friendship -Finishing off a bottle of non-alcohalic sparkling grape juice -managing to get drunk off that bottle of non-alcohalic sparkling grape juice -Finding out the real name of legolas and finding sexy pictures. My New Year's Resolution is to not care what people think and be as truely myself as I can get. I also want to experience something new and positive. I think that when people so so worried and caught up in being the perfect person they will go out of their way to get there. People care way too much about what other people think of them. They get so despirate to be like everyone else that they change themselves in every single way they can just to "fit in". They slowly evolve into the people they want to be like that they eventually turn into them. I shouldnt care what people think... if they dont like me for me..than thats their loss because I have alot to offer. Lately things have been really fucked up. My life is so boring I want to experience something new...something out of the ordinary cycle that i call my life. I dont want the new experience to be negative. I want to to be as positive as it can get. Maybe it will reflect on my life and I'll become more of a happy positive person. What I need to do to get myself there is to not focus on the negatives in my life. Things could always be 10x worse. I also need to get rid of any jealousy or envy i have. Its just getting in the way of what I can become on my own. I dont thrive on jealousy there for I shouldnt need it. I have more personal goals for this new year to come but I need something to keep to myself that I can secretly work on to see if people notice a difference. I want to become more successful at my life and get more serious. All I want is for my parents to be proud of me for once. That could be my new positive experience but how long would it last? I scratch that.. I dont care if my parents are proud of me..I need to do something for myself..not for the satisfaction of them...For once.. I need to think of me and only me..not anyone else. This is not going to be one of those things I say but never do. I've done that way to many times and I think that maybe just once..I should stick to something and be dedicated. Some of the more personal goals I have could change my life on the plus side. They are really important decisions that I have to make and if they are really truely what I want i should do it. I also need to focus on why I'm doing them. I will do whatever it takes to achieve these goal..This time I promise. I dont want to be unhappy for the rest of my life. I need to do something for myself that will make me happy and maybe keep me happy. Happy New Years. |
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sheels21489 | **time for a deep moment**, 01-01-03 9:58pm I truly admire you Amy. You are such a strong and independent person and I think recognizing everything you just said puts you halfway towards it.
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thedarkerside | Re: **time for a deep moment**, 01-02-03 9:02pm aww almost brought a tear to my eye lol |