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glitterkisses (profile) wrote,
on 3-13-2004 at 10:00am
Current mood: intimidated
Music: Blink 182-Stay together for the kids.
Subject: ~*~When it comes, it comes, then it's gone...forever.~*~
She comes out whent he sun goes down. Her shell opens and shes left with herself. Everyones asleep in the world as she sits on her bed and listens to John Mayer sing about what love is or could of been. Every new day she throws on another fake face, forgetting that pretending to be happy, doesn't make you happy. Of course bad days she throws in maybe more so than happy to make so more believable, not just for everyone else, but herself too. But the only person shes kidding, is herself. She doens't know if she's really telling herself the truth. They tell her not to worry, it's just a part of life, part of high school, part of all of us. But she leaves certain pieces out of the picture and out of the story. The way she thinks it should be. But she's the only person thinking with her head just to protect her heart. Everyone knows, including her that her intensions are good ones. Ones with your best intrest at heart. She's serious when she holds you close. But what it worth when your always falling, faster than you can get back up again. Lifes too short, too short to live it as a bad person anyway. She crusl up after long, rainy, hours of trying to puzzle up the pices of her life, as young as it is. They just never seem to fit. No matter how hard she trys. Or anyone for that matter. Maybe that's her problem she tells herself. Maybe she just trys too hard to be happy, again that it just ends up defeating the entire purpose. She's afraid to fail, she's afraid to succeed. Which leaves her where? So many questions, but not enough answers. She looks around, and only few of the faces are true. A girl who has always been there in the past pictures of fieldtrips to the zoo, cedar point, michigans adventures, vacations with the family, pool parties and more. THe same girl who will be in the future pictures of my weeding, maide of honor, the girl to throw my bachlorett party, to make the toast at my reception, to throw me my baby shower, to have our kids grow up next door to eachother, to still be there when were old, and almost dead. And the face of him, the only other person who knows her, loves her un-condtionally, protects her, saves her, understand her. That's it. Everyone else has let her down before, heart heart is just still trying to re-build like everyone else. Its the first thing to put a real smile back on her face, back in her heart again after a long long time. But she can't seem to find a way to make love simply be love without time. She needs time, and thens he knows in her heart everything will work out for the best. But the only ticking clock in her head poping a question is the one that asks, "What if it's too late?" Time is the healing answer to any great or small aches, espically an ache of the heart. Her life is a path that no one but her can stear. She can do it. She knows she can. The only thin she truely questions....is what way to go?

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Yeah...ignore that. So I've been sick. Today's the first day I've actually been able to get up and walk around for more than 10 minutes. Pretty nice. heh. So yeah. That's about all. Oh if anyone knows if we won Firday let me know, and where the next game is?

Jess
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shea2006

03-14-04 1:59pm

Hey,
It's this wed. at Farris vs. EGR!!!! I am glade you are feeling better. Call me!
Luv ya, Shea:)

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Glitterkisses

Re:, 03-15-04 11:03am

Aww thanks Shea. I luv u, ur so sweet. Wanna hang out this weekend? See if Cass is up to it too? Call me tonight, have fun at practice! :) luv ya Jess

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