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| jedibumblebee (profile) wrote, on 1-3-2003 at 12:34am | |
| Current mood: stressed Music: Goldfinger- Counting The Days Subject: Just another stupid thing that I done wrong...still counting the days I've been without you...still counting the days that you've been gone... |
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| You know that you are in a bad mood when you are driving home late at night and just thinking about life...suddenly you look down and realize that you are going 60mph in a 25... My life kindof feels like I've been going 60 in the 25 zone. It's like, the new me knows that its just time to chill, that i ought to mellow out because i'm driving myself nuts. but upon coming home for break, i've awakened the old me, the one that likes to stress mad crazy and rush through things and create problems full of stupid shit. JediBumblebee: hi PhoxxPhire: hey PhoxxPhire: you gothome quick JediBumblebee: yeah i even wore the glasses. i dont know why. i suppose i'm easily persuaded. but for some reason he seems to be the only one who can do it. i plan to come to grips with a few specific things. 1. he does not, will not, feel the same about me as i do him. 2. when he asks me to hang out, it is not a sudden lapse into liking me again. the answer is simple- he either feels guilty for the way he's treating me, or he wants to get some. not real hard to figure out. 3. he's going to date a LOT of other girls, and probably flaunt them all, not necessarily because we're "friends, and friends tell each other that kind of stuff". it's because he's an asshole. and assholes do that sort of thing. at least his roommate is nice to me. 4. he will inevitably have a serious relationship and tell you all the gory details, regardless of his declaration to avoid relationships... it really wasnt that he doesnt want relationships...it was just a nice bullshit excuse to get out of yours. 5. most of the promises being made now are nice and empty, meant to fill the space before i go back to school. so this is what it feels like when someone "cares about you". one more convincing factor for why i do not, will not believe in love. |
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danibean | 01-03-03 11:37pm i love those glasses...we bought them together! hehe |
jedibumblebee | Re:, 01-04-03 8:50pm and i nearly lost an eye....remember? |