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Angel_Bob (profile) wrote,
on 3-18-2004 at 8:10pm
Current mood: sad
Music: some basketball game
I was thinking of putting this in my private journal but then no one would see it and I want to hear what you think.

My father came home today with a big cardboard box that he got from my uncle Mike (the one doomed to call us whenever one of our relatives dies)

It's filled with some of my aunt Patty's things. There's jewelry, cross-stitching things (some she never finished), a blanket my mom made for her, candles never opened, pictures of Hannah and I, a sweater thing and a coat she wore a lot.

I'm wearing the coat right now. It smells like her. I'm wearing one of her rings and one of her necklaces.

Her coat smells like her.

It's sad, I can't remember what her voice sounded like. I can't even see her face anymore. The pictures of her are all I have left.

My heart hurt as we went through her things. It hurts now thinking about her.

This is all we have left. Cross-stitching and jewelry.

I'm almost crying.

I love her. She's my favorite relative. She's my favorite aunt.

For those new to my journal and to me, my aunt Patty is my hero. She died on December 26, 1999 of breast cancer. She loved Christmas, it was her favorite holiday. She was divorced from her husband since as long ago as I can remember and raised her son, Tyler, on her own.

Tyler now lives in North or South Carolina (I can never remember) with his father. I haven't seen him since Patty's funeral. He didn't come up for my uncle's funeral.

It felt weird going through that box. This is my aunt Patty. All she is and was can fit in a cardboard box.

I'm sorry... I should go do my History project.

I love you all.
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Aerii

03-18-04 10:21pm

My only Grandfather died a year ago. Six days after his only sons (my dad) birthday. And it took so long for me to accept that he was actually gone.

He called me Love. I was the one he called that the most. It was a second name. And now no one does.

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SuzakaWaterWings

Re:, 03-18-04 10:35pm

My mommy died June 2002...Because of a drug OD. Right before I started high school...I don't have much more to say except I loved her a lot and wish I had told her more often. And Aerii I adore your icon (big Labyrinth fan here)

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Aerii

Re: Re:, 03-18-04 11:04pm

Angel_Bob made it.

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windedhero

awwe, 03-18-04 11:24pm

I'm sorry for your loss.

I tend to forget deaths... it just comes natural to me, I suppose.

My grandma died.. hmm... 1999, I think, of lung cancer from all that smoking she did. she made the best skinny pancakes. and my sister died on july 13, 2000, the day before my 14th birthday. she was 13.

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Angel_Bob

Re: awwe, 03-19-04 9:17pm

I'm sorry.

Sometimes I forget that I'm not the only one who has experienced the death of someone close to them.

I love you.

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Sike-a-delic_Grasshopper

03-20-04 9:26am

death hurts.....but it'll be ok. I love you.

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