Woohu.com - Read Comments

Add Memory \| Add To Friends
	polishpimping (profile) wrote, on 3-22-2004 at 6:10pm
Current mood: good Music: White Stripes. Subject: I said 39 times that "I love you" to the beauty I had found
I can't explian why I feel like I do. Truthfully I hope I never have to. Not that the way I feel now, needs to be justified, but that the way I have felt leading up to the past few days left a lot to be desired. I've always had a lot of issues about control. In the past I was in very bad situations for me emotionally. I handled it well in the past (before you all knew me) because I knew at least that I had some control over the situation. I haven't felt like I've had any control in my life in a very long time. In the past my lacking ability to bring about the changes that I felt I needed was a sever detriment to my well being. But for some reason things are starting to change for me... Michelle, you know my feelings about you. You know how much fear of this summer has a debilitating effect on my happiness. It has caused me to make a lot of the present not as fun as it should be. Things are gonna change though, for three reasons. 1) Right now, I love you more than I can describe in words. Je coeur. 2) Right now, I truely believe that you love me. I have struggled with this a lot. And it seems that even though I can't rationalize it, you do love me. 3) "Right Now" is a very very great time to be me. I love you all.
Post A Comment

Fanelia

03-22-04 8:29pm

"It has caused me to make a lot of the present not as fun as it should be."

Wow, you nailed it on the head... for both of us. :-)

(reply to this)

michellestar

03-23-04 12:40am

Thank you Mike. You bring me happiness. This summer will be fun. We're still gonna hang out...and damnit I'll get you on the Millenium Force if it kills me. :))

(reply to this)

Polishpimping

Re:, 03-23-04 9:52am

I love you. I truely do.

I have nothing to fear.

(reply to comment)