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brutisimo (profile) wrote,
on 3-23-2004 at 1:04am
Alright, I am noticing that i have become more and more like my old self as of late. I am finally getting comfortable with the people around me and that is such a good thing, except that I have sort of changed and it may be a little confusing. I know that i have shown a softer, nicer side before, but that is not me. I am the bitch. I always have been and I hate to pretend I am not. I am mean to people that annoy me, and if i dont like you i will tell you; there is not reason for fake freindship. I have real friends and if you dont, then it sucks to be you. I am mean to my friends, but always in a playful way. I say i hate you, but that means i like you, cuz i try never to use the word hate seriously...it is too strong; that is the same reason I don't use the word love...too strong. I dont like criers, I dont like crying...if that makes me a bad person, ok. I like to gossip, but i try not to hurt people with it, and I almost never tell anything if I was specifically told not to...if it is hurtful, or belittling, i try to let the person know what is going on. I like to cuddle, but that doesnt mean I want to do anything more. I am a cuddle slut. If I kiss you, you know that i like you, so until then, dont get your hopes up...or anything else for that matter. Drama is bad, but inevitable. I like the kind that is real...creating drama just to get attention irks me beyond belief, and I might have to hit you in the face. Oh yeah, I am very violent too. I like to hit, push, tickle, pinch and poke. If you dont like it tell me and I might try to do it lessbut probably not. I only do it to people I like, cuz if i dont like you i wont bother with you so take the compliment, and buck up bitches. I would not waste my time like that.

in conclusion, I am mean, and rude, and sarcastic, and cold, and bitchy, but i heart you all, and if i dont, you know it!
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TaoMan1121

03-23-04 3:24am

"I am the bitch. I always have been and I hate to pretend I am not."

I have a question: Is this approach to life truly reinforcing for you, or is it just what you know how to do? In other words, do you actually enjoy "being the bitch" as you say, and if so, can you explain why you find it so reinforcing? I'm honestly not trying to suggest one avenue is better than the other, I'm truly curious. I like trying to understand people who are different from me...

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syrk1

03-23-04 8:40am

Alicia,
You are truly amazing.. I don't think you are the cold harded bitch that you always say you are.. I am glad you are always there for me and I love that you are a cuddle slut:)

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michellestar

03-23-04 10:30am

Damn girl! Don't beat me up too much next year.

Wait, if you don't hit me then you DON'T like me? Oh shoot...

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brutisimo

03-23-04 10:58am

HAHA...i heart you guys...here we go...

Jason: Its not that it is reinforcing, but I just like to speak my mind, which often comes off as bitchy, and I am tired of censoring myself. It is nice to be able to be me without being afraid that people will not like me...I am finally comfortable and secure enough to know that it is ok if not everyone likes me cuz the important people do.

Krystal: I know I am not REALLY as cold and bitchy as I say...it is a joke dear...remember...jokes are funny, but I am a little, and that is ok...

Michelle: No worries...i would never actually hurt you...i heart you! besides, it DOES mean i like you...

Anyway, I cant believe yous read that silly confusing entry, so I heart you all!

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brutisimo

Re:, 03-23-04 11:00am

Oh Yeah...and i LOVE that I am a cuddle slut too!

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Fanelia

Re: Re:, 03-23-04 12:02pm

HEY! I'm a cuddle slut too!!! Our apartment will be like a cuddle harem or something...

I like you just the way you are ALicia. Perhaps the reason I don't have a problem with you is because I have a sense of humor. That always helps. Sometimes people take things a little TOO seriously...

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