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| lisa3019 (profile) wrote, on 3-24-2004 at 3:20pm | |
| Current mood: ecstatic Music: T.I. - Rubberband Man Subject: I don't talk behind no backs, I'll say it to your face |
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haha. anyways. today was a very cool day. if woohu had smiley faces, id use one with glasses. well im in a really good mood. and i even made a new friend today. *smiley face goes here* so... life's like... more than a big love triangle. it's like a jewish love triangle. here's the deal. your first love. that's love, right? okay, well. each crush and relationship after that is just a rebound, you know? it never does get any better, but the only reason your dating is mainly because you want to get over someone. well, it's neverending. that's why relationships suck. ...that's definitely what makes me so brilliant. when i was 14, i was like eh, fuck relationships. but then you know, there was that one that everyone talked me into. big mistake. that one pretty much ruined me. that was what turned me into a psychotic bitch. that was where all my jealousy came from, because before that i didn't give a fuck. anyways. that sucked. and it lasted a while too. it was fun, which was why it went so long, it's just that, in the end, that was my ruin. then you know, i had that whole "fuck guys, im never dating anyone, and im serious this time" attitude. HA. didn't last for long. which was cool because the next time i actually DIDNT have a relationship. it was just a totally cool friendship.. with relationship qualities. it was fun. but no real relationship. i think that's why i liked it so much. it was just one big blow-off type of a deal. ...ahahahah then. that ended, as all things do. cause you know, you just get bored. so, thats what happened there. which, again, was cool, because we were definitely better off as friends. exactly alike. similiar views on everything. opposites attract. ...um. but that ended as well. and in hate. so.. hahaha um. okay. then you know, i cant hold a grudge so, again i was like fuck it, i dont care. and the "i dont care anymore" attitude wasnt mutual, so.. there's no friendship there. haha oh well. then you know, that whole, "no more relationship" thing stuck with me, and i was serious this time... or atleast i thought... because i actually went for so long without a boyfriend-girlfriend thing going on, and i loved that. ..which, duh, didn't last long. psht. haha i just don't seem to stick with things do i? anyways, what happened here was, there was the whole hottest-kid-ever deal. haha yeah, it was.. hm.. there's not really a word comign to mind for this one. so, i dunno. all the while i was feeling no... again no words really coming to me.. let's say.. chemistry. as Hollywood as that sounds, that's what the problem was. just wasn't feelin it, you know? So.. this one didn't end up in hate, but, ended up exactly how it started. i guess it was a kinda, "i can do this" thing, where i kept saying to myself, "yeah, i can make this work".. um, obviously not. when there's nothing there. there's nothing there. just simply put. So!! Totally cool with everything. As always, because.. duh.. i'm cool. *cool smiley face here again* Not being ontop of your shit...$500 A bag of 'dro in the same cuff spot...$125 An ass-whooping...*priceless* (Sorry I had to be interrupted with that one) Well.. totally cool with everything? Or so I thought. Cause as things go, I don't even know what I'm thinking all the time. I am one fucked up little girl, I realize. I can not help that I am a psycho. Anyways. So I get all jealous for no reason. And I'm like, "i dont want to date you, but you cant talk to any other girls".. well, that's fucked up. id probably punch me in the face if i said that to me. and he doesnt even care. hes like "okay".. like.. im such a freaking bitch. it's like a joke or something. anyways. so im this big bitch after he blows off all other girls that want to talk to him, and when hes finally like, "i dont think wed make it in a relationship" im like, "why not??"... i dont even understand myself. how. lame. anyways. so just about this time all these other guys start talking to me. and im like "woo look at me im a dumb psycho bitch and i don't know what i want".. and i talk to all of them. dumb idea. guys are like a game. and i'm gonna sit this one out. So.. Liz just walks in the house from school bawling her eyes out. She doesn't know yet. She's now trapped in the jewish triangle. Sucks. To. Be. Her. *smiley face* Okay. So I'm going through this big Beatles craze right now. So lame. I'm like obsessed. I listen to them all day, everyday. G-A-Y. It's my pal's birthday tomorrow. *wishes buddy a happy birthday* Last year he got play-doh. This year he gets nothing. Haha, well. Maybe when I get money I'll find him something nice, cause he's so easy to shop for. |
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