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TaoMan1121 (profile) wrote, on 4-4-2004 at 2:55pm | |
Music: Badly Drawn Boy - A Minor Incident Subject: and nothing you could do to stop me feeling the way I do... |
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I'm off the wagon, and I'm hitchin' a ride. Don't worry, it'll go soon, I can already feel it leaving, but on the other hand, it's always there, so that's a relative statement. I want to get out of here. I thought time served + good behavior, I'd be up for parole by now. I'm so fucking jealous of all you people on the outside, or at least those who believe they're on the outside. Don't mistake, I don't want company here, I just want to be out there with you. Ignorance is bliss. I want to be ignorant. So you have really deep thoughts, what's so special about really deep thoughts? I forget what it looks like on the outside. 'Til then, visiting hours are 9-5, and if you show up at ten past 6, you know I'll find some way to sneak you in. Fuck you for calling me and telling that, not once, but twice. How does that help me? And fuck you for talking to me and making me feel better last night. I love you. And fuck myself for dreaming. You think that I want to feel this way. You think that I want to write these words? I could stop, but where the hell has my restraint got me up until this point? People will still walk on my fucking back if I let 'em. No wonder there's so many cynical people on this earth; I'd love to join you, but I don't know how. There's just too much that time cannot erase. I sure hope I get released soon, because I'm sure am sick of looking at these goddamn bars. |
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Fanelia | 04-04-04 3:12pm Sometimes dude, you really worry me.
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Leeder5421 | 04-04-04 3:41pm Dude, take it easy.......I know it is shitty, but take it down a notch....remember, you're not the only one who's ever had this kind of problem. Do you think I was never jealous of you and Fras when I would hang out with you guys and your girlfriends? I constantly felt like an outsider during those situations, but I dealt with it. As for feeling smothered or confined (I'm a little confused as to what this entry is about, btw), remember that you're taking a vacation pretty soon, so you at least have that going for you. |
Angel_Bob | and if the chance should happen that I'll never see you again..., 04-04-04 7:03pm just remember that I'll always love you
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TaoMan1121 | Re: and if the chance should happen that I'll never see you again..., 04-05-04 12:07pm Thank you. |
Anonymous | 04-04-04 11:53pm This is Ricci. If u need someone to talk to let me know. I have to admit I am so confused about your entry and I have no idea what is going on but I am here for you if u need me. BTW, it was nice hanging w/ you on Saturday night even tho it wasn't for very long :) But I'm sure you guys were happy to ditch the girl and go out to the bar and get drunk of your asses (hehe). Call me if u need me. |