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| lisalion816 (profile) wrote, on 4-4-2004 at 3:22pm | |
| Current mood: depressed |
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| Prom was last night. It was fun i guess. Didn't dance with any guys which sucked but oh well, so goes my life. After prom, sam, josh, mark, julie and i went to denny's since thats the only place open late. Josh and tony met us there. Im still killing myself over josh. He made little comments, like, u look really good in that dress, and so on and so forth. I just dont get why he is flirtatious and makes these comments if he doesn't like me. we had a long talk online after denny's...sam was talking to him too and relaying the info to me. If im such a great person, and attractive and stuff...why won't he date me? It sounds like hes making up excuses to not have a girlfriend. I asked him about jonelle and he said they are not a couple and they just hang out. I asked him y we couldn't do that and his response was because jonelle would get pissed. fuck her i say. if a person wont let u hang out with certain ppl then they are not ur friend. is she jealous? hmmm.....sam told me that he liked/likes her but she totaly blew him off and if she did like him then she would be trying harder to get him. i just think she likes the attention he gives her.whatever. im just lost about this whole thing. he also said that he might want to back off a little since every time we all go out he hurts me and feels like a jerk. im glad he feels like a jerk because at least he knows hes being one...maybe not at the moment hes acting like a jerk....but afterwards. I see past ppls flaws......and i really like him still and it just makes me crazy that i can't have him. there is just something about him that rips my heart out and makes me miserable that hes not mine and im not his. i can't help it god knows ive tried. Im never like this. god im so stupid. i will be miserable for the rest of my life because no one wants me. my plan is to keep hanging out with him and try to change things around. i can do it..it just takes time...by the time i leave for sweden i hope to steal a kiss and i will. | |
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| Anonymous | pissed off, 04-18-04 12:27am jonelle is a horse's ass..if shes so jealous then she should claim him already instead of leading him on. what a dumb whore so i guess i will never see him either :'( i wonder if the whore knows bout prom night hehe
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